Thursday, January 30, 2003





Lord of heaven and Earth
Lord of all creation
Lord of heaven and Earth
Lord of all creation

Of water Earth and sky
Heavens are you tabernacle
Glory to the Lord on high

Chorus:
God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy holy
Universe declares your majesty
You are holy holy

Lord of heaven and Earth
Lord of heaven and Earth

Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light (light)
When I stumble in the darkness
(I will call your name by now)

I will call your name by now

Chorus

Lord of heaven and Earth
Lord of heaven and Earth

Halleluiah to the Lord of heaven and Earth
Halleluiah to the Lord of heaven and Earth
Halleluiah to the Lord of heaven and Earth


Holy, Holy
Holy, Holy

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy

Precious Lord reveal your heart to me
Father holy, holy
Universe declares your majesty
You are holy, holy, holy, holy
- God of Wonders, Third Day & Caedmon's Call

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im swimming through a sea of contradicting desires, actions, and thoughts. im beginnig to look for happiness in all the wrong things again, but im gonna do what i can to stay focused. im not really down, sad, depressed, upset, or any real negative emotion like that, just at the moment, im a bit numb. as to why exactly, im not really sure. i think its because both my heart and mind know what i have to do, but yet, neither are compeletly sold or convinced. this worldy mentality is so hard to lose. the world makes me think a person will make me happy and fufilled, or a moment of indulgence, or a lack of struggle is all i need to have a content life... the more ive tried to adapt to such beliefs, the more i realized how wrong they are, how empty they it will leave you, and how misguided and confused i will become. even so, its appeal is there, i dont know why... but deep down i know in my heart, that nothing the world offers can compare to the greatest love of all, from Him. but because im constantly surrounded by the influences of today's society and beliefs and modern culture, it continues to pull me away, while i do what i can to keep my eyes fixed upon the heavens. what i do know is however, that despite this so called struggle, i am blessed, heck im overweight, meaning im eating well enough and dont have to worry about where the next meal is coming from, im in a modern, somewhat advanced western university, meaning i have a good deal more money than most of the rest of the world could even imagine, plus i get the benefit of having an extensive education. in other words im not about to go around complaining about life, cuz its good. sometimes too good to be true. but i guess, as humans we cant be satisfied, EVER, with what we have, if everything else is goign well for us, we gotta create drama, unnecessary drama, and im not about that either, i used to be cuz it gave me a slight sense of fufillment, but no, im not about seeking it anymore. i wanna go back to the simple things in life. and i gotta take care of my business, im blessed so i better do something with all of it. its time to make history, but not for the sake of my name... for im not worth any of it.