i feel tired, yet unsettled.

unsure as to why. its kind of like something doesnt feel right, yet at the same time it does.

steve's guitar playing the background is therapeutic/relaxing though.

maybe more on this later as it develops.

this is for OFM.

i am amazed and delighted.
it doesnt have to end here, so dont let it.

trust in the Lord and you will not grow tired and weary.

my face is peeling. i have sudden random attacks of itching on my shoulders.... ahh the wonderful results of sunburn.

did you know you can get sunburn even if there is no sun out? almost the entire day was cloudy but apparantly UV rays can go through clouds. hah, could have fooled me. i thought i was safe, too cool for suntan lotion, there's no need, there's no sun...

*bzz* sorry wrong answer. now i have a wonderful wife-beater tanline across my upperbody to add to the other visual signs of my poor judgement.

s'ok though. OC was a blast. no not Ocean City itself, cuz that's just aight. but the trip, the body, the fellowship, fun fun.

the water was freezing though, i mean COLD. and it was raining in the morning, but hey, us guys cant let a lil nature get in the way! we all had to immediatly strip down to our trunks and jump in... dang we are foolish.

eighteen inch pizza sub on the boardwalk... biggest sub i ever ate. too expensive though. darn it. oh yea, i got to experience the joy of being pooped on by those evil seagulls. they saw me as a threat, so they tried to take me out. i screamed, everyone else around me screamed, a ripple of screams went out. then spontaneous laughter, some with me, most at me. yay! curse those seagulls, i shall get them one day.

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the best part by far was praise on the beach, never done it before, but cant wait till next year to do it again. nighttime breeze + sound of ocean waves + bout 30 heads praising = a good good time.
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more and more i think im going back. im really starting to get excited. no other way this time. its gonna get done.
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just a lil over a year has passed, and i think i can say the fast has been successful so far. i need to regroup and refocus myself again for the upcoming year cuz i seem to have started to let my mentality slip up. ok, im putting on my armor, and my helmet... and my anti-girl spray... and going back out there.
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woohoo, first pay check tomorrow. home depot fa sho.

stupid things ive done for/because/around girls
- teased a girl about a physical attribute thinking i would be the funny guy only to realize i offended her (repeat offense)
- once again i was trying to be the funny guy and i was goofing off in school, jumping up and down for some reason when a girl shouted "eww stop! your pants are falling down!"
- drove 2 hours just to MEET a cute girl i met online
- bought over-priced, not-that-great smoothies cuz a cute girl worked at that ice cream shop
- tried to be mr. romance by leaving anomynous gifts to my crushes and then 'gently hinting' that i did it
- when picking up a girl to go to the mall and after being interrogated by her dad, i got so nervous and slammed my own car door on my finger when we got in
- in middle school i crank called a girl i had a crush on... i have no idea why... i just called and hung up
- spent WAY TOO MUCH TIME ONLINE TALKING to all of them
- my first crush in elementary school went to my kumon tutoring place, i didnt know her name but saw her put her folder away so i looked at the name tag and then proceeded to write her and my name on my school binders circled them with a heart

prob more to come...

Thank you for...
A - apple juice, agape, amusement parks
B - the bros, bubble tea
C - capri sun, cell phone, computer, chinese culture, childhood
D - Dad, Divx, digital everything
E - express lanes, e-mail
F - fellowship, friendship, file-sharing, frappachino
G - God, guitar, great weather
H - holy spirit, honey mustard, hip-hop
I - internet, instant messenger, ice cream
J - Jesus, job, juice
K - Kazaa, korean culture
L - love, long distance friends, laughter
M - mom, mp3, my mic, milk, milk shakes
N - naps, neutrogena face wash
O - old-school kpop, OFM, online shopping
P - photographs, prayer
Q - QOHS memories
R - rap, rollercoasters
S - sentra, school, sleep, sister, the sisters, snow, soribada, sports
T - teenage mutant ninja turtles, telephone
U - UMBC
V - vacations, voltron
W - west coast beaches, winter, webcam
X - X-men
Y - youth group memories
Z - zippers

work in progress...