dont tell me about it later, cuz you can keep ya stories/
you believed he's a sure thing, but you didnt heed the warnings/
dont come to me if he treats ya poorly and you need supporting/
didnt think i could be a jerk? you can either believe it or leave/
sorry, i didnt mean to spit so much verbal abuse, im just split in twos/
maybe im just missing you.... i dunno i guess im just a bit confused/
darker style of writing coming from me eh?
hehe... i dont usually write like that, i dont even remember exactly when it was i wrote this. just goes to show much i depend on lyricism to get my thoughts unto paper, even during my darker times.
Monday, September 30, 2002
Sunday, September 29, 2002
oh yea i just remembered this song hehe.
its originally sung by elton john but i first heard it in moulin rouge...
but this one part is sort of like an add on description
for my piece down below.
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
k gnite.!
its originally sung by elton john but i first heard it in moulin rouge...
but this one part is sort of like an add on description
for my piece down below.
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
k gnite.!
Saturday, September 28, 2002
i pretty much spent the entire day today working on how to do audios....
gosh its so hard! haha, well for an entire's days work i was able to do one full piece.
here it is, i wrote up most of it today, part of the first verse was made from earlier tho.
haha it sucks so bad, but this is only my third full audio song in my entire life, and im working with
completely new equipment and software, so i was kind of struggling. Sometimes its hard to
understand me, but im working on my delivary. Im also tryna figure out how to use the audio
tweakings and what not, bah well either way ill stop making excuses for why it sucks..
oh btw, probably the only decent thing about this song is the beat. props to SOLETERNITY. he's friggn amazing. I didnt even ask for his permission to use this haha but its just a hobby so i dont think he'll mind. check him out at mp3.com and look him up.
and here it is.
here are the lyrics in case you cant understand.
Chorus:
when you were down you shared with me
when i needed you, you were there for me
im just thankful that you cared for me
but i guess this is the part where i leave
Verse 1:
its sad to say what we have today wont last or stay/
but i guess thats the way, it is, time will pass away/
we've all had some bad mistakes but that's okay/
but i guess i just have some thigns that i have to say/
we each of gotta walk our own seperate paths/
and both the good and bad times are just left in the past/
but i tell ya its definate that, never will i be forgetten the laughs/
im thankful for the time that we had, but i guess im just regrettn its passed/
and i hate saying good bye's/
and how friendships can seem like only one day in a life/
and i wanna promise you'll forever be my heart, n stay in my mind/
hopefully we'll meet again, maybe one day ours fates'll entwine/
cuz these are and forever will be, the days of our lives/
and how you tackle things depends on the state of ya minds/
i pray that you will each eventually will come to a way that you'll find/
will have an abundance of the lord's blessings, just dont stray from his side/
Chorus:
Verse 2:
I hate to admit it, but im already beginning to lose touch with you/
i guess its hard, sometimes i just have too much stuff to do/
so i get discouraged, thinking man screw it, what's the use/
i dunno why its getting me down tho, im sure i must've knew/
no longer can i joke around and hear us laugh it up/
doesn it suck when we know time's passed us up?/
i cant even give ya rides so you dont have to catch the bus/
i always said how are you, but it doesnt seem like i asked enough/
i cant listen to you rant when youre mad at some one/
or try to help you vent when you just had to much/
im sure you'll find another who'll help you have some fun/
but i guess it just saddens me that im not that someone/
i want to give you advice, even though you may not use it/
or maybe just drive around and listen to music/
well im not gonna sit here and start making excuses/
but i apologize for any time i may have hurt you when i was stupid/
Chorus:
Verse 3:
So i guess its the end, but the journy was worth it/
each of you will come to this day, but dont be nervous/
make the most of the time you got, cuz what ive learned is/
you cant start a single day without a purpose/
lean on god, follow his ways, dont hesitate to be his servants/
and ya life will have gone to amazing from worthless/
you've all been great, god bless you, you all deserve it/
dont be afraid of the day when our memories fade/
there may be a time when you cant remember my name/
but in the end its the same, in what ever the case/
the time ive had with you all was never a waste/
chances are if you are reading this, then this was in part meant for you.
enjoy.
gosh its so hard! haha, well for an entire's days work i was able to do one full piece.
here it is, i wrote up most of it today, part of the first verse was made from earlier tho.
haha it sucks so bad, but this is only my third full audio song in my entire life, and im working with
completely new equipment and software, so i was kind of struggling. Sometimes its hard to
understand me, but im working on my delivary. Im also tryna figure out how to use the audio
tweakings and what not, bah well either way ill stop making excuses for why it sucks..
oh btw, probably the only decent thing about this song is the beat. props to SOLETERNITY. he's friggn amazing. I didnt even ask for his permission to use this haha but its just a hobby so i dont think he'll mind. check him out at mp3.com and look him up.
and here it is.
here are the lyrics in case you cant understand.
Chorus:
when you were down you shared with me
when i needed you, you were there for me
im just thankful that you cared for me
but i guess this is the part where i leave
Verse 1:
its sad to say what we have today wont last or stay/
but i guess thats the way, it is, time will pass away/
we've all had some bad mistakes but that's okay/
but i guess i just have some thigns that i have to say/
we each of gotta walk our own seperate paths/
and both the good and bad times are just left in the past/
but i tell ya its definate that, never will i be forgetten the laughs/
im thankful for the time that we had, but i guess im just regrettn its passed/
and i hate saying good bye's/
and how friendships can seem like only one day in a life/
and i wanna promise you'll forever be my heart, n stay in my mind/
hopefully we'll meet again, maybe one day ours fates'll entwine/
cuz these are and forever will be, the days of our lives/
and how you tackle things depends on the state of ya minds/
i pray that you will each eventually will come to a way that you'll find/
will have an abundance of the lord's blessings, just dont stray from his side/
Chorus:
Verse 2:
I hate to admit it, but im already beginning to lose touch with you/
i guess its hard, sometimes i just have too much stuff to do/
so i get discouraged, thinking man screw it, what's the use/
i dunno why its getting me down tho, im sure i must've knew/
no longer can i joke around and hear us laugh it up/
doesn it suck when we know time's passed us up?/
i cant even give ya rides so you dont have to catch the bus/
i always said how are you, but it doesnt seem like i asked enough/
i cant listen to you rant when youre mad at some one/
or try to help you vent when you just had to much/
im sure you'll find another who'll help you have some fun/
but i guess it just saddens me that im not that someone/
i want to give you advice, even though you may not use it/
or maybe just drive around and listen to music/
well im not gonna sit here and start making excuses/
but i apologize for any time i may have hurt you when i was stupid/
Chorus:
Verse 3:
So i guess its the end, but the journy was worth it/
each of you will come to this day, but dont be nervous/
make the most of the time you got, cuz what ive learned is/
you cant start a single day without a purpose/
lean on god, follow his ways, dont hesitate to be his servants/
and ya life will have gone to amazing from worthless/
you've all been great, god bless you, you all deserve it/
dont be afraid of the day when our memories fade/
there may be a time when you cant remember my name/
but in the end its the same, in what ever the case/
the time ive had with you all was never a waste/
chances are if you are reading this, then this was in part meant for you.
enjoy.
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
hey, this is a quick update, but i just wanted to share my new discovery.
as some of you know ive gotten a webcam this past week and im just now finding out all the cool things one can do with such a powerful resource. well, this is the first of im sure will be many tests and experiments to come, may they benefit man kind ^^.
download here
alright everyone. bye!
as some of you know ive gotten a webcam this past week and im just now finding out all the cool things one can do with such a powerful resource. well, this is the first of im sure will be many tests and experiments to come, may they benefit man kind ^^.
download here
alright everyone. bye!
Wednesday, September 18, 2002
here are some picturas for your entertainment ^^
i just picked out some from my ministries web page... for the rest you can just go there
the following are from last week's game night....
here is Lonnie doing a punishment,... she's acting like a dog hehe
here is my back, doing this rediculous game... dont ask
this is pete... being pete
here is a bunch of people... and summer sticking out her tongue
and here's most of the ministry
the next bunch are from saturday's volleyball sessions
here's tina... makin a face
ramaro making a face
hedgi...doing... i dont know...something with her leg
hehe... those were just to give you guys a break from all the text ive been putting out...
i do have a webcam but i cant really use it using windows xp... boo windows xp...
that's it for now.. tata!
i just picked out some from my ministries web page... for the rest you can just go there
the following are from last week's game night....
here is Lonnie doing a punishment,... she's acting like a dog hehe
here is my back, doing this rediculous game... dont ask
this is pete... being pete
here is a bunch of people... and summer sticking out her tongue
and here's most of the ministry
the next bunch are from saturday's volleyball sessions
here's tina... makin a face
ramaro making a face
hedgi...doing... i dont know...something with her leg
hehe... those were just to give you guys a break from all the text ive been putting out...
i do have a webcam but i cant really use it using windows xp... boo windows xp...
that's it for now.. tata!
Monday, September 16, 2002
i overslept 3 hours today and missed my first class ever so far this semester... haha *note to self, the "just 5 more minutes of sleep" method doesnt work.*
in general ive noticed, i admire a lot of my older female friends. Sometimes i find myself pondering what if I were just a few years older, would I be really attracted to some of these individuals? Honestly I think i would. I dunno, maybe its just this sense of maturity that surrounds some older girls, where it seems like they dont deal with some of the petty and somewhat rediculous problems that girls my age or younger often complain about. It's like they've outgrown those kind of predicaments and have moved on to focus upon greater, more important things in their lives, like their walks with god for example....
well either way im so blessed to have older sisters in christ like the ones i have now....
and my older brothers... oh man... haha its great to know such a great group of guys got my back at any given moment, and genuinly try to spread the love as much as they possibly can....
im finding that college is truly turning out to be a rewarding experience as long as i walk with god through it
in general ive noticed, i admire a lot of my older female friends. Sometimes i find myself pondering what if I were just a few years older, would I be really attracted to some of these individuals? Honestly I think i would. I dunno, maybe its just this sense of maturity that surrounds some older girls, where it seems like they dont deal with some of the petty and somewhat rediculous problems that girls my age or younger often complain about. It's like they've outgrown those kind of predicaments and have moved on to focus upon greater, more important things in their lives, like their walks with god for example....
well either way im so blessed to have older sisters in christ like the ones i have now....
and my older brothers... oh man... haha its great to know such a great group of guys got my back at any given moment, and genuinly try to spread the love as much as they possibly can....
im finding that college is truly turning out to be a rewarding experience as long as i walk with god through it
Sunday, September 15, 2002
at a recent joing campus agape ministry meeting, a group of alumni's were given the oppurtunity to share a little about how god has worked in their lives... as well as give some advice for those now in college...
for all of you, i have labored long and hard to pick out the best = )
so please take the time to read some of these gems of wisdom
"Gods plans for you are much better then the ones you try to accomplish for yourself"
"Dont do anything halfway. It is miserable spending your life in the middle trying to decide whether or not you're going to give your all to Christ. The only way to truly be satisfied is to give all you got for the kingdom. No ifs, ands, or buts about it."
"Make decisions (no matter big or small) based on God, i.e. not depending on human wisdom"
"Trust in God for the present and the future. He will provide what you need at the right time. Seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you."
"Live your life for the things that are eternal. Dont wast time pursuing things of the world, thinking that that will make you happy. God is the only one that satisfies."
"There's nothing else worth living for! Close your ears to what society and culture have to say about what is really important; running after career, prestige, wealth, or relationships will lead to a reward that is instnaly gratifying, but will not last. What you do for Christ will last for eternity. Also, a general rule of thumb: when you're ready to start thinking about marriage and the spiritual, emotional, and financial responsibilities this will entail, then you're ready to start thinking about dating. Otherwise, being involved in dating relationships when you arent ready can be a hindrance to your growth in Christ. As you seek the Lord and trust Him with your future careerm finances and spouse, He will provide all that you need."
praise god! he is compassionate and it is evident that by choosing to live your life continualy under his guidance, that you will have a fufilling and awesome life! Right now more then ever, I am filled with so much hope and wonderment towards my future. I am willing to see how God will use me to further his kingdom, and to spread his love! For those of you reading this that know me personally, please keep me accountable, and join me in leading this new life style!
for all of you, i have labored long and hard to pick out the best = )
so please take the time to read some of these gems of wisdom
"Gods plans for you are much better then the ones you try to accomplish for yourself"
"Dont do anything halfway. It is miserable spending your life in the middle trying to decide whether or not you're going to give your all to Christ. The only way to truly be satisfied is to give all you got for the kingdom. No ifs, ands, or buts about it."
"Make decisions (no matter big or small) based on God, i.e. not depending on human wisdom"
"Trust in God for the present and the future. He will provide what you need at the right time. Seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you."
"Live your life for the things that are eternal. Dont wast time pursuing things of the world, thinking that that will make you happy. God is the only one that satisfies."
"There's nothing else worth living for! Close your ears to what society and culture have to say about what is really important; running after career, prestige, wealth, or relationships will lead to a reward that is instnaly gratifying, but will not last. What you do for Christ will last for eternity. Also, a general rule of thumb: when you're ready to start thinking about marriage and the spiritual, emotional, and financial responsibilities this will entail, then you're ready to start thinking about dating. Otherwise, being involved in dating relationships when you arent ready can be a hindrance to your growth in Christ. As you seek the Lord and trust Him with your future careerm finances and spouse, He will provide all that you need."
praise god! he is compassionate and it is evident that by choosing to live your life continualy under his guidance, that you will have a fufilling and awesome life! Right now more then ever, I am filled with so much hope and wonderment towards my future. I am willing to see how God will use me to further his kingdom, and to spread his love! For those of you reading this that know me personally, please keep me accountable, and join me in leading this new life style!
I am blessed
I am blessed
From when I rise up in the morning
Til I lay my head to rest
I feel You near me
You soothe me when I'm weary
Oh Lord, for all the worst and all the best
I am blessed
You've given me joy
You've given me love
You give me strength
When I want to give up
You came from heaven
To rescue my soul
This is the reason I know, I know
- excerpts from "blessed" by Rachel Lampa
the lord is always faithful, im beginning to realize it more and more
I am blessed
From when I rise up in the morning
Til I lay my head to rest
I feel You near me
You soothe me when I'm weary
Oh Lord, for all the worst and all the best
I am blessed
You've given me joy
You've given me love
You give me strength
When I want to give up
You came from heaven
To rescue my soul
This is the reason I know, I know
- excerpts from "blessed" by Rachel Lampa
the lord is always faithful, im beginning to realize it more and more
Friday, September 13, 2002
Everyday is a new day
I’m thankful for every breath I take
I won’t take it for granted
So I learn from my mistakes
It’s beyond my control, sometimes it’s best to let go
Whatever happens in this lifetime
So I trust in love
You have given me peace of mind
chorus:
I feel so alive for the very first time
I can’t deny you
I feel so alive
I feel so alive for the very first time
And I think I can fly
Sunshine upon my face
A new song for me to sing
Tell the world how I feel inside
Even though it might cost me everything
Now that I know this, so beyond, I can’t hold this
I can never turn my back away
Now that I’ve seen you
I can never look away
the lord calls us to be radicals, a generation of prophets.... im feeling this epiphany....time to bring some action to the name of CHRISTian.
praise the lord for he is good. he is faithful. he's got your back always.
ps.... GOD I MISS DRIVING
k that's it for now, tata! god bless!
I’m thankful for every breath I take
I won’t take it for granted
So I learn from my mistakes
It’s beyond my control, sometimes it’s best to let go
Whatever happens in this lifetime
So I trust in love
You have given me peace of mind
chorus:
I feel so alive for the very first time
I can’t deny you
I feel so alive
I feel so alive for the very first time
And I think I can fly
Sunshine upon my face
A new song for me to sing
Tell the world how I feel inside
Even though it might cost me everything
Now that I know this, so beyond, I can’t hold this
I can never turn my back away
Now that I’ve seen you
I can never look away
the lord calls us to be radicals, a generation of prophets.... im feeling this epiphany....time to bring some action to the name of CHRISTian.
praise the lord for he is good. he is faithful. he's got your back always.
ps.... GOD I MISS DRIVING
k that's it for now, tata! god bless!
Thursday, September 12, 2002
hey wassup, this is somewhat of a forced entry because usually when i do these things i delibarately sit down to do this because i want to, but for a while now i havnt really felt too motivated to write a whole lot in here, but i guess i will for the sake of maintenance.
ive joined a new church here called agape ministries, and its really good stuff... this is their web page... ive even been trying to go to morning prayer at least a couple times a week... haha its hard waking up tho...
as it sits, my crappy days are Mondays and Wednesdays, where I have at least THREE classes to go to, and they are spread out so that the whole day is shot... Tuesdays ive designated to be my laundry day because i go to class at 11:30 then come back and grab some lunch and do my laundry... its worked out pretty well so far.... but what sucks is having to spend 3 bucks everytime i wanna do laundry...
ive been meeting a lot of cool people, mainly through agape, but either way i'm never really lonely, so that's a plus, also, me and my roomate get along real well... he's like the white version of me... very chill, very relaxed... and very lazy haha... so its all working out pretty well...
luckily, my workload isnt rediculous... at least not yet, but im sure it will all of sudden be piled on and ill be in the library 24-7 hitting them books... but until then im enjoying a somewhat laid back life... a mixture of doing my limited amount of school work, and hanging out or playing games and what not...
ok well that's all i can say for now... ill cya next time... peace
ive joined a new church here called agape ministries, and its really good stuff... this is their web page... ive even been trying to go to morning prayer at least a couple times a week... haha its hard waking up tho...
as it sits, my crappy days are Mondays and Wednesdays, where I have at least THREE classes to go to, and they are spread out so that the whole day is shot... Tuesdays ive designated to be my laundry day because i go to class at 11:30 then come back and grab some lunch and do my laundry... its worked out pretty well so far.... but what sucks is having to spend 3 bucks everytime i wanna do laundry...
ive been meeting a lot of cool people, mainly through agape, but either way i'm never really lonely, so that's a plus, also, me and my roomate get along real well... he's like the white version of me... very chill, very relaxed... and very lazy haha... so its all working out pretty well...
luckily, my workload isnt rediculous... at least not yet, but im sure it will all of sudden be piled on and ill be in the library 24-7 hitting them books... but until then im enjoying a somewhat laid back life... a mixture of doing my limited amount of school work, and hanging out or playing games and what not...
ok well that's all i can say for now... ill cya next time... peace
Friday, September 06, 2002
hi everyone...
a lot of people have been yelling at me for putting up the last link... so to APPEASE YOU PEOPLE...
here are links for your entertainment... and yes they truly are entertaining...
1.JiHeon If You're Reading This, You're the Guy on the Right
2.this is entertaining for about.. 5 seconds
3.unexpected ending
4.A CLASSIC: XIAO XIAO
5.A fun follow-up to Xiao Xiao
6.something to do when you're bored
7.careful.. you might get a seizure
k that's the update for now... some are more fun then others...
and yes.. this is all you do in college.... go to class... study... surf the web for fun things
a lot of people have been yelling at me for putting up the last link... so to APPEASE YOU PEOPLE...
here are links for your entertainment... and yes they truly are entertaining...
1.JiHeon If You're Reading This, You're the Guy on the Right
2.this is entertaining for about.. 5 seconds
3.unexpected ending
4.A CLASSIC: XIAO XIAO
5.A fun follow-up to Xiao Xiao
6.something to do when you're bored
7.careful.. you might get a seizure
k that's the update for now... some are more fun then others...
and yes.. this is all you do in college.... go to class... study... surf the web for fun things
Sunday, September 01, 2002
quick up date, just wanted to share this with the world
http://people.freenet.de/freeek/SajjadAli.swf
have fun.
http://people.freenet.de/freeek/SajjadAli.swf
have fun.