hey .... hmm ive been doing a lot more writing then i have in a long time but ne wayz..... not much is going on in life... just school stuff and every once in a while ive been writing... any ways here's what i came up with today after school.....
first of all this first peace....... it is actually meant to be interpreted a number of ways..... one is a message from god to us... another is a story of friendship, and lastly it can be interpreted as a story of a deep love, but anyway u interpret it, its basically about how some1 is always there for you...... now from which point of view i decided to write it from..... is something that will just be left unsaid =P
Gaurdian Angel
like a gaurdian angel; ill never leave your side
like a gaurdian angel; i will be the light
like a gaurdian angel; ill always be inside
your heart, to help you lead ya life
im with you through the hard times/ making sure that you are all fine/ helping you up when u fall behind/ because always and forever you are mine/ i'm here constantly watching over you/ working to have your hope renewed/ bring'n smiles to ya face that are long overdue/ n when i hear cries i rush over cuz i know its you/ so ill be holdn you/ wiping away each falling tear drop, always close to you/ im here to make all your fears stop owning you/ bringing you sweet dreams and chasing away the night mares/ you may feel alone at times but im always right there/ to fight scares/ and light stairs/ and hallways that are too dark to pass through in life/ i live each day with forever you in sight/ ill be that lone star to lead you through your nights/
like a gaurdian angel; ill never leave your side
like a gaurdian angel; i will be the light
like a gaurdian angel; ill always be inside
your heart, to help you lead ya life
and also i finished that one verse i posted last time..... ill bold the new parts... its basically a piece about violence and hate.... and how i think its totally wrong, basically i just added a few lines to finish up the first verse... and a hook that is partly taken from a korean hip hop song by LLK... its not that well known but just for integrity's sake im letting people know that some of the words in the hook were not written by me
brothers at war... what do you fight for?
vengeance is our only enemy
love is the cure... so why do we fight wars?
"cuz we gotta blame somebody" .....else....
that's it!, the lines crossed/ how can we find cause/ enough to kill when already we've had so many lives lost/ stop the clock! make time pause/ so we can remind all/ just how invaluable peace of mind costs/ cuz "an eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind"/ so how can you even try to kill your own kind/ stop spilling blood b4 there's no more time/ cuz humanity just cant afford more crime/ refugee's flee just to find a calm spot/ tryna get away from all the gun shots and dodge the bomb drops/ dont let this be a battle long fought/ where the fighting's nonstop/ cuz who's the a winner when 100's die cuz we bombed the wrong block?/ we're missn the point by a long shot/ we've got anthrax biological spore scares/ battln with highly technological warfare/ so where do we get when we lock-n-load? no where!/ terrosim is just a term we use to justify killing as defendn me/ but regretably/ the true identity/ of the enemy/ is most definately/ the lack of human compassion and integrity/ unfortunately it'll be only then they'll see/ that nothing was accomplished by hating with such intensity/
brothers at war... what do you fight for?
vengeance is our only enemy
love is the cure... so why do we fight wars?
"cuz we gotta blame somebody" .....else....
alright that's it.....
Tuesday, November 13, 2001
Friday, November 09, 2001
hey everyone..... this is gonna be a much shorter update this time... but yea during the last two periods of school today i was really bored and i had a lil free time at the end of both so i came up with this small verse.... peep it, its just about fighting in general obviously inspired by all these terrorist counterstrikes what not.... hit me with your thoughts ....
that's it!, the lines crossed/ how can we find cause/ enough to kill when already we've had so many lives lost/ stop the clock! make time pause/ so we can remind all/ just how invaluable peace of mind costs/ cuz "an eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind"/ so how can you even try to kill your own kind/ stop spilling blood b4 there's no more time/ cuz humanity just cant afford more crime/ refugee's flee just to find a calm spot/ tryna get away from all the gun shots and dodge the bomb drops/ dont let this be a battle long fought/ where the fighting's nonstop/ cuz is there a winner when 100's die cuz we bombed the wrong block?/ we're missn the point by a long shot/ we've got anthrax biological spore scares/ battln with highly technological warfare/....
that's all i got done.... ill finish up when i have time again...
that's it!, the lines crossed/ how can we find cause/ enough to kill when already we've had so many lives lost/ stop the clock! make time pause/ so we can remind all/ just how invaluable peace of mind costs/ cuz "an eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind"/ so how can you even try to kill your own kind/ stop spilling blood b4 there's no more time/ cuz humanity just cant afford more crime/ refugee's flee just to find a calm spot/ tryna get away from all the gun shots and dodge the bomb drops/ dont let this be a battle long fought/ where the fighting's nonstop/ cuz is there a winner when 100's die cuz we bombed the wrong block?/ we're missn the point by a long shot/ we've got anthrax biological spore scares/ battln with highly technological warfare/....
that's all i got done.... ill finish up when i have time again...
Monday, November 05, 2001
hey what's up everyone.... i guess this post'll be in two sections. one is the usual telling of what's been going on, the other will be more a less a stream of random thoughts so yea... heh have fun
well not much has been going on, basically the first quarter of my senior yr is coming to a close, 3 quarters left of high school, i believe 126 days of school left for me, it prob wont really hit me until next spring tho, when its close to graduation..... anyhow yea im just tryna finish this semester on a positive note since its pretty much the last one to count before i send off most my apps to college.....
hmm ah yes the revival that i had been talking of so much took place this past weekend, and it was quite an experience, i was expecting great things from god, and i believe nothing less than that happened... great things.... i guess ill give a quick rundown of the weekend as a whole...
alright so basically friday i got of school, sat back and relaxed, watched tv or something, then my friend calls from his friend's house where his breakdance crew was practicing and tells me he needs a ride to the revival cuz he just lost his other ride, so i get up and i go to pick him up and then to the revival where i had to go early to help setup and for a prayer meeting..... unfortunaltely in the middle of the prayer meeting i had to leave early cuz i promised my friend id pick him up and well the meeting started late so yea, i left and picked him up and we came to church, and the revival started.... a praise band from another local church played for us and oh man are they awesome, they totally knew what praise was all about, and they really helped to start off the revival with a worshipful attitude, then our jundo (pastor) gave a msg and it was something that at first wasnt really hitting me, but towards the end, after doing a lil deeper soul searching i realized it really did apply to me, and im praying that these revelations will evoke some positive changes in my life... well after the msg and prayer time, we had close praise and once again praise was off the hook, unfortunately i had to leave early cuz the revival was going so overtime and i had sat II's the next morning and i promised my friend id stop by her birthday just to at least give her my best wishes... so i did just that but my friend didnt want me to leave without doing one song on her karoake machine... and cuz of the revival and praise my voice was gone.... but eh i gave in and im pretty sure afterwards she'd rather have me go home haha, i was so off, anyhow it was fun and that was that and i came home hit the sack......
i woke up saturday and was like screw it, ill take as shower and clean up after the sat II's... cuz eh who cares, haha so i just went scrubby as anything and took my writing test, it wasnt that bad but i suppose the scores will be the judge of that, then i came home and just did random stuff, some hw here and there, some studying, some resting... then i call up my friend and we go chill at the mall for a lil bit cuz he wanted some new bball shoes, i pick up my sister and finally evening arrives where day 2 of the revival starts, well once again things were off to a rather late start, and there was a lot of time to kill cuz i went early again to help out and for the prayer meeting but nothing started ontime..... but it was really phat cuz my friends from VA (diana, hanna and lily) along with one of diana's friend from nearby came for the revival that night and i was so happy they could make it, anyhow haha they were really anxious to meet new ppl but stupid MD ppl are all shy to newcomers so even after i intro'd they shy away... grrrrr i felt bad, PLUS i had to leave them alone for like 15 minutes cuz the prayer meeting started but its all good, they survived^^, but yea uhm i came back and the revival started for the night, praise was even TITER then the night b4.... the msg was less funny this time but oh so much deeper, talking of how we must meet god in our most simple and broken forms cuz it is through our weaknesses he helps us find strength, it was another great msg, and after that we had a time of prayer again, and well this time i wasnt as invovled in prayer during this time and i mainly focused on still praising but i noticed that my va driends were really bonding through prayer, it felt really good to see that for them, well this tiem i got to stay for the whole thing and afterwords we had fellowship/snack time downstairs, and a bunch of us went to mcdonalds to get some late night grub and it was fun just chilling, but it was getting late so at least i went home and called it a night.. and what a great night it was
sunday was the 6th birthday of my church, we had a joint service along with some good food and i came home and that was that^^
alright now to my stream of random thoughts....
*sunday night i watched a movie. "someone like you"... i guess id recommend it, it was pretty decent, not a stinker like most of the movies ive been watching lately, plus ashley judd is a real qt in the movie haha, anyhow at the very end the two main protagonist lovers finally find one another and they pose a somewhat rhetorical question to one another, one asked "im thinking, what have we got to lose" the other replied ." uhm... everything?" and the first person replied with "exactly"..... haha for some reason those lines stuck with me, and its something ive been thinking about.... i suppose along with the questions and revelations posed in my heart and mind from the revival, it made me think, in life what have we got to lose when we make decisions..... everything..... that is what makes life life..... anyways it jsut got me thinking about how, we cant play it safe in life, resisting complacency cuz we are comfortable with what we have is something we need to struggle with, indeed we must at one point lose everything to find what we truly do have and what we have been blessed with from god...... a paradox in a sense yet seemingly completely logical and coherent i could go on but im sure it'd bore you
*you know human emotions are a very, interesting to say the least and puzzling thing, at least for me i find myself very.... i dunno haha its just i guess basically im somwhat of a girl crazy type person, i mean of course i have my on times and off times, but lately the yuj's (girls) have been in my head quite a bit, basically i can narrow down the attraction to two girls, one is some1 im good friends with and i dunno, i mean i guess she's just been some1 always in the back of my mind for a while now, the other is some1 im not yet that close with but god she's such a great girl, i mean both of them are great girls haha, but yea.... im up a friggn tree, it looks like imma have to just sit back and wait these "crushes" out like i do basically every other time...... haha i dunno, basically i think girls look for one type of thing in a guy... not me...... haha eh oh well sooner or later i know good things'll come^^ just be patient and pray about it i suppose...
anyhow i have more thoughts but perhaps later, im tired of typing...... tata
well not much has been going on, basically the first quarter of my senior yr is coming to a close, 3 quarters left of high school, i believe 126 days of school left for me, it prob wont really hit me until next spring tho, when its close to graduation..... anyhow yea im just tryna finish this semester on a positive note since its pretty much the last one to count before i send off most my apps to college.....
hmm ah yes the revival that i had been talking of so much took place this past weekend, and it was quite an experience, i was expecting great things from god, and i believe nothing less than that happened... great things.... i guess ill give a quick rundown of the weekend as a whole...
alright so basically friday i got of school, sat back and relaxed, watched tv or something, then my friend calls from his friend's house where his breakdance crew was practicing and tells me he needs a ride to the revival cuz he just lost his other ride, so i get up and i go to pick him up and then to the revival where i had to go early to help setup and for a prayer meeting..... unfortunaltely in the middle of the prayer meeting i had to leave early cuz i promised my friend id pick him up and well the meeting started late so yea, i left and picked him up and we came to church, and the revival started.... a praise band from another local church played for us and oh man are they awesome, they totally knew what praise was all about, and they really helped to start off the revival with a worshipful attitude, then our jundo (pastor) gave a msg and it was something that at first wasnt really hitting me, but towards the end, after doing a lil deeper soul searching i realized it really did apply to me, and im praying that these revelations will evoke some positive changes in my life... well after the msg and prayer time, we had close praise and once again praise was off the hook, unfortunately i had to leave early cuz the revival was going so overtime and i had sat II's the next morning and i promised my friend id stop by her birthday just to at least give her my best wishes... so i did just that but my friend didnt want me to leave without doing one song on her karoake machine... and cuz of the revival and praise my voice was gone.... but eh i gave in and im pretty sure afterwards she'd rather have me go home haha, i was so off, anyhow it was fun and that was that and i came home hit the sack......
i woke up saturday and was like screw it, ill take as shower and clean up after the sat II's... cuz eh who cares, haha so i just went scrubby as anything and took my writing test, it wasnt that bad but i suppose the scores will be the judge of that, then i came home and just did random stuff, some hw here and there, some studying, some resting... then i call up my friend and we go chill at the mall for a lil bit cuz he wanted some new bball shoes, i pick up my sister and finally evening arrives where day 2 of the revival starts, well once again things were off to a rather late start, and there was a lot of time to kill cuz i went early again to help out and for the prayer meeting but nothing started ontime..... but it was really phat cuz my friends from VA (diana, hanna and lily) along with one of diana's friend from nearby came for the revival that night and i was so happy they could make it, anyhow haha they were really anxious to meet new ppl but stupid MD ppl are all shy to newcomers so even after i intro'd they shy away... grrrrr i felt bad, PLUS i had to leave them alone for like 15 minutes cuz the prayer meeting started but its all good, they survived^^, but yea uhm i came back and the revival started for the night, praise was even TITER then the night b4.... the msg was less funny this time but oh so much deeper, talking of how we must meet god in our most simple and broken forms cuz it is through our weaknesses he helps us find strength, it was another great msg, and after that we had a time of prayer again, and well this time i wasnt as invovled in prayer during this time and i mainly focused on still praising but i noticed that my va driends were really bonding through prayer, it felt really good to see that for them, well this tiem i got to stay for the whole thing and afterwords we had fellowship/snack time downstairs, and a bunch of us went to mcdonalds to get some late night grub and it was fun just chilling, but it was getting late so at least i went home and called it a night.. and what a great night it was
sunday was the 6th birthday of my church, we had a joint service along with some good food and i came home and that was that^^
alright now to my stream of random thoughts....
*sunday night i watched a movie. "someone like you"... i guess id recommend it, it was pretty decent, not a stinker like most of the movies ive been watching lately, plus ashley judd is a real qt in the movie haha, anyhow at the very end the two main protagonist lovers finally find one another and they pose a somewhat rhetorical question to one another, one asked "im thinking, what have we got to lose" the other replied ." uhm... everything?" and the first person replied with "exactly"..... haha for some reason those lines stuck with me, and its something ive been thinking about.... i suppose along with the questions and revelations posed in my heart and mind from the revival, it made me think, in life what have we got to lose when we make decisions..... everything..... that is what makes life life..... anyways it jsut got me thinking about how, we cant play it safe in life, resisting complacency cuz we are comfortable with what we have is something we need to struggle with, indeed we must at one point lose everything to find what we truly do have and what we have been blessed with from god...... a paradox in a sense yet seemingly completely logical and coherent i could go on but im sure it'd bore you
*you know human emotions are a very, interesting to say the least and puzzling thing, at least for me i find myself very.... i dunno haha its just i guess basically im somwhat of a girl crazy type person, i mean of course i have my on times and off times, but lately the yuj's (girls) have been in my head quite a bit, basically i can narrow down the attraction to two girls, one is some1 im good friends with and i dunno, i mean i guess she's just been some1 always in the back of my mind for a while now, the other is some1 im not yet that close with but god she's such a great girl, i mean both of them are great girls haha, but yea.... im up a friggn tree, it looks like imma have to just sit back and wait these "crushes" out like i do basically every other time...... haha i dunno, basically i think girls look for one type of thing in a guy... not me...... haha eh oh well sooner or later i know good things'll come^^ just be patient and pray about it i suppose...
anyhow i have more thoughts but perhaps later, im tired of typing...... tata