Lord of heaven and Earth
Lord of all creation
Lord of heaven and Earth
Lord of all creation

Of water Earth and sky
Heavens are you tabernacle
Glory to the Lord on high

Chorus:
God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy holy
Universe declares your majesty
You are holy holy

Lord of heaven and Earth
Lord of heaven and Earth

Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light (light)
When I stumble in the darkness
(I will call your name by now)
I will call your name by now

Chorus

Lord of heaven and Earth
Lord of heaven and Earth

Halleluiah to the Lord of heaven and Earth
Halleluiah to the Lord of heaven and Earth
Halleluiah to the Lord of heaven and Earth

Holy, Holy
Holy, Holy

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
Precious Lord reveal your heart to me
Father holy, holy
Universe declares your majesty
You are holy, holy, holy, holy
- God of Wonders, Third Day & Caedmon's Call

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im swimming through a sea of contradicting desires, actions, and thoughts. im beginnig to look for happiness in all the wrong things again, but im gonna do what i can to stay focused. im not really down, sad, depressed, upset, or any real negative emotion like that, just at the moment, im a bit numb. as to why exactly, im not really sure. i think its because both my heart and mind know what i have to do, but yet, neither are compeletly sold or convinced. this worldy mentality is so hard to lose. the world makes me think a person will make me happy and fufilled, or a moment of indulgence, or a lack of struggle is all i need to have a content life... the more ive tried to adapt to such beliefs, the more i realized how wrong they are, how empty they it will leave you, and how misguided and confused i will become. even so, its appeal is there, i dont know why... but deep down i know in my heart, that nothing the world offers can compare to the greatest love of all, from Him. but because im constantly surrounded by the influences of today's society and beliefs and modern culture, it continues to pull me away, while i do what i can to keep my eyes fixed upon the heavens. what i do know is however, that despite this so called struggle, i am blessed, heck im overweight, meaning im eating well enough and dont have to worry about where the next meal is coming from, im in a modern, somewhat advanced western university, meaning i have a good deal more money than most of the rest of the world could even imagine, plus i get the benefit of having an extensive education. in other words im not about to go around complaining about life, cuz its good. sometimes too good to be true. but i guess, as humans we cant be satisfied, EVER, with what we have, if everything else is goign well for us, we gotta create drama, unnecessary drama, and im not about that either, i used to be cuz it gave me a slight sense of fufillment, but no, im not about seeking it anymore. i wanna go back to the simple things in life. and i gotta take care of my business, im blessed so i better do something with all of it. its time to make history, but not for the sake of my name... for im not worth any of it.

now that im back at school, i can upload things for the sake of entertainment.

anyone remember this? goodtimes.

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now a lil song.

Dcho & Jotted Down - His Grace (tentative title)
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here are the lyrics to the song above, by request.

Intro
Im fallin and I cant get up, im fallin and I cant get up. (x4)

Verse1
im fallin and I cant get up, im fed up, instead of, tryin to keep my head up/
I was ahead of, this game always marchin through rain, all that came my sane knew how to take the pain/
Now my faith has changed and from the greatful way I break away with my faith's pace delayed/
I'd hate to say, but my life's a waste today/
Ive turned evil and it aint a place safe to stay/

Ive hit the ground, now im down in the dirt/
I wanna get up but every ounce of me hurts/
I don’t think I can stick around for the worst/
Cuz Ive already started doubting his words/
What if im forever, friggn bound to this curse/
this situation is quickly, drowning my courage/
in terms of life, I really aint proud of my works/
im like a beaten boxer who went down in the first/

Chorus
You, gave, me, hope/
So when im down I will stand and come and turn to you/
Now, ill, burn for you/
to commit myself and live my promise till its true/ (x2)

Verse 2
Christ might be gone, rather shows grace and my life's redrawn/
the father shows hope and I respond, take the second chance with it rightly done, the fight is on/

like a u turn, im changing my ways/
by praying for grace when Im straying away/
lifes not an arcade so I aint playing its game/
he’s given me hope so I aint staying the same/

yo, I've fallen to a foreign place/

So open up and receive all his adoring grace/

But yo, ive been sinning so much these days/

So repent, grow, and learn from your mistakes/

But then, shouldn't I be condemned today?/

Jesus saved you from ya cemented fate/

But then, from Him I have strayed so far/

Jesus bridged the gap, to save your heart/

Chorus

verse 3
Eyo eyo, God ill commit to you/
Eyo eyo, live my promise til its true/
Eyo eyo, now im gonna burn for you and help the hearts of other people come and turn to you/ (x2)

Because of only you, I am able to rise/
Because of only you, Ive been given new life/
Because of only you, I will get by/
And everytime I fall, only you are by my side/ (x2)

life through song.

featuring...


Grits - Ooh Ahh
(i would provide sound clip if i was on a faster connection)

the story of my life.

The fear of never falling in love.../
and the tears after lose'n the feelings of what you thought love was/
like the dirt still up under the rug.../
my life be like, bad characteristics covered in christ's blood/
the joy of new birth and the pain of growing up/
the bliss between giving my all and giving up/
the highs and lows, paths and roads i chose/
in the cold i froze, tryna ease my woes... /

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the story of my winter break

Dcho & Jotted Down - Untitled Track

Ive hit the ground, now im down in the dirt/
I wanna get up but every ounce of me hurts/
I don’t think I can stick around for the worst/
Cuz Ive already started doubting his words/
What if im forever, friggn bound to this curse/
this situation is quickly, drowning my courage/
in terms of life, I really aint proud of my works/
im like a beaten boxer who went down in the first/

but...

like a u turn, im changing my ways/
by praying for grace when Im straying away/
lifes not an arcade so I aint playing its game/
he’s given me hope so I aint staying the same/

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songs im tryna pick up on the guitar:
Extreme - more than words
Tim Hughes - Day After Day
Jason Park - Who Am I?

--- songs that just plain sound tite
s-word ft. christina milian - the answer (i cant understand japanese -_-;)

im seemingly stuck in the middle... of being a man and being a boy.
im starting to aquire more and more responsibilities while at the same time tryna lose the childish mentality... kind of an interesting transition considering i go back and forth several times, sometimes within the same day. im not really in a rush to grow up, yet at the same time i want to... i think its just the curiousity. where is God leading me within the next couple years? intriguing...

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oh well, anyways here's a love song for you.

Girl..
If you were a newspaper, then I would be your ink/
If you were a piece of doo doo, then I would be your stink/
We go together like Abotto and Costello/
Bill Cosby and Jell-o.. peeing, and yellow/
If you were a face, and love was a fight/
Then I would rearrange you, oh yes I just might/
Lady you look luscious let me lick you like a dum dum/
Just let me get to know you, and show you where I come from/
I pump you like diesel, pop you like a weasel (Vanilla Ice)/
I would be acryllics, and you would be my easel (Let's paint each other up)/
I'm a remote control and you're my favorite channel (channel 10)/
Girl I dig you like a mole I want to hump you like a camel/
And then commence to suckin out all your tooth enamel/
-Love Poetry, Mountain Brothers

ok? ok.

"as christians... we HAVE to sing!"
-Pastor Jason Park (the quote isnt exact)

"my soul, my soul must sing
my soul, my soul must sing
my soul, my soul must sing
beautiful one!"
-beautiful one, Tim Hughes

its hard.... trying to be humble. but i'm trying. i'm also slowly trying to grasp the concept of praising Him in my darker times as well as my times of joy. but its just hard trying to percieve life through a Godly concept rather than a human one. Third Day has put my aspirations and feelings so nicely into song form...

"How many times have I turned away?
The number is the same as the sand on the shore
But every time you've taken me back
And now I ask you do it once more"
-Take my life, Third Day

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on another note...

there may be times when things get colder in life/
so i say be bold in the fight, ya know what is right/
show them by example, and hold up the light/
and never forget bro, your a soldier for Christ/

ya gotta do what ya gotta do bro... so do it for Him.
joe.youaremyfriend.com ... its your song man.

the thing ive realized....

is that to God.. you're never out of reach... he's constantly there holding on... even during the times you friggn dont want him too....
but that's why I'm so thankful.. cuz those are the times I need him most.

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on another note...
winter retreat 2002 pics

sahbin and ji... in a very compromising pose.

me and my ol jundo laughing it up

sahbin and danny... enjoying the peace i guess

daniel doing who knows what

edwin embracing byong... byong looking a bit uncomfortable

two of the sexiest guys in OFM.. jermz and ji


i dunno...ask ji

joe getting ready to get his grub on

some of the brothers... sharing the love

the infamous michelle and edwin

its all about the skits

watch out now

some of the sisters... peace?

more of the gals.

the scenery

this is goodbye.

Hopeless
2. Giving no ground of hope; promising nothing desirable; desperate; as, a hopeless cause.

hm... that's not a very good state of mind to be in...
sometimes, even the most redundant, obvious, and appealing of truths... can just seem like empty words.
on the larger scale... its just a little blip in my life... sure... i know it is... but im living this darn blip... maybe ill laugh at it later... but it sure aint funny now.
i am weak. i am of the flesh, and i am in this world, yes i know not of it... just in it. i promised i wouldnt give in, but it doesnt seem to matter anymore, of course... i know it still does... but its just easier to give into the moment then to building myself for the future. after all, that seems to be the root of all my problems.

"this is my heart, bleeding before you
this is me down on my knees....

these foolish games, are breaking my heart"
-Foolish Games, Jewel
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heh, they warned me, "things tend to spiral downward once you go away, but you have to fight it". I didnt take it seriously... because this never happened in the past... yet same time I dont think i've ever been so close before... so maybe in the past i had nothing to fall down from. funny what a few days does to someone eh? darker tones... a sense of bitterness perhaps... everyone has them at some point or another.. its just a matter of how you deal with it... do you indulge? or do you go at it, head on. yesterday, i chose to stay in the dark room. today, its been back and forth. there has been some progress, i suppose that's something. maybe tomorrow ill take another step... shoot... maybe ill just start running...
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maybe.
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ive been cold in the past, sorry to those ive been cold to. you dont know what im talking about, but I do. I just didnt understand... perhaps cold isnt the right word... more like... inexperienced. I didnt believe you when you said you were here. I thought 'here' didnt exist. Apparantly it does... when you give in. Its easy to pretend though. Pretend like you're not here. You're somewhere more pleasant... more comforting... the interesting thing is... you cant define...... this place. The thing is, my 'self' is split. I knowingly choose to be here, because as hard as it is to becoem satisfied here, it just seems easier to be unhappy here rather than working to be happy over there. That aint right. You know it, and I know it. So, we try to find an escape from here, only its temporary... it suits us just fine.. or at least me, but only for a moment. It doesnt have true staying power, but perhaps that's not what I was looking for? In the end, of course that's what I want. And there is only one true source and accurate description of Forever. That's where I should be going. Tomorrow, I'm going in that direction. And in two days im leaving. This is no place for me, its no place for anyone. Bye you beast. You cant get to me when im not awake, when i'm not concious, when im not aware of your precense. So i'm sleeping. You've had your fun with me. When I wake up, im not looking at you either. I'm turning my head and walking the other way. And screw you, I'm not looking back. Chase me, I dare you... I'm going to win. Not cause I'm any stronger than you, but because I've got something that scares the Hell out of you. You know what I am talking about.
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"I will go where you go..."
-I Will go where you go, Debra Park

in the words of britney...

oops i did it again...
im so careless sometimes it sickens me....

please dont let me stray to far from You!

josh, its been good knowing you bro... i hope you continue to live for Him wherever you are.
btw... that's a crazy pose


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random thoughts:
-those kids in the welch's juice commercials kind of scare me... they talk more intellectually then i do.
-kristen kreuk is too cute
-i am weak, but in Him i will be strong.
-i wish there werent so many cars of that were the same darn kind, its distracting... nevermind.
-LL Cool J gave a week performance tonite.
-being idle can be a little too self destructive.

-...you know you're strong too... i just hope you dont try to do this alone...