yea yea, its been forever since i last updated.... not really all that much has been going on heh.....
i dont even know who reads this.... do you? cuz sometiems even I forget about it puhaha... eh oh well i guess here's the rundown of the past month
ive been quite bz.... with college apps and what not, especially this past week, seeing how most of my apps are due by this friday (the 14th) into my school's registrar.... so yea its starting to become crunch time... those of you out there, please try to pray for me and that all goes well aight?
aight basically im done with standarized testing for my entire life! yippee! i finished off my last batch of sat II's and everything this past month so now more sat's.... its a good feeling... cant wait until apps are outta the way.. that'll be an even better feeling hehe.....
school wise... its been fluctuating.. .actually i started to revert to old habits and what not so my grades started to slip... but im getting on top of it... i actually got intirims in several of my classes but yea, im confident i can pull em up as long as i dont lose focus... i only need to hold on a few more months... then second semester i can just glide through! yippee... haha...
in terms of things happening out of school.... not much... just church stuff... oh yes we had a turkey bowl at the end of november, my church didnt do too hot, but we did respectable for our team who was much younger and less experienced then many of the other churches.. although we didnt win much, we didnt have anything to be ashamed of either...
christmas is coming up.... and there were three birhtdays i had to take care of this week... my money is draining fast hahaha.... by the end of the month i wont have much left.... here's where i stand at this moment.....
75 bux..... at the start
but i have to get a friend a gift cuz im his/her (haha) secrent santa so... -20
which leaves me at 50... but i still owe my friend 10 for a painting he is painting for my parents.. so that leaves me at 40... i have about 20 dollars in bday gifts i need to purchase.. leaving me at 20...
then at church.... i have one more secret santa thing going on... lets say 10...
so if i budget myself well... MAYBE.. JUST MAYBE i can get away with 10 dollars left over... probably not though.... cuz i know some ppl are gonna creep up on me.... and i wont have any money left for them ahha....
i guess im gonna have to get creative for some ppl's gifts... time to brain storm....
hmm what else would you like to know about my life as of right now?..... oh yes of course.. girls girls girls.... i guess basically.... absolutely postively nothing at all is going on.... im not exactly a chick magnet but its all good... i know all in god's time... hahah just gotta get patient... but in terms of how im feeling towards any particular girl... lets just say im fairly well head over heels for this one girl, and have been for quite some time... but i realized lately its been getting much better and im not so pressed hehe...hopefully by the new yr ill just have a clean slate!..... and oh yea im in the library writing this right now at this moment.... and there is a very very cute girl sitting a couple tables away... too bad she looks like she's in college or maybe id try picking a girl up for the first time... haha learning how to flirt with new girls is something on my to do list b4 i go of to college... i must be well prepared... puhaha just kidding... or am i? o.O hahha... sorry i guess im sorta tired....
ok well that's all i can think of offa the top of my head.... increase the peace.... just do it.... eat your vegetables..... love your neighbor... remember to think b4 talking.... and for the guys dont let the toilet seat fall down while your taking a wizz... it'll hurt... k that's it for now... im out tata until next time...
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Wednesday, December 12, 2001
Tuesday, November 13, 2001
hey .... hmm ive been doing a lot more writing then i have in a long time but ne wayz..... not much is going on in life... just school stuff and every once in a while ive been writing... any ways here's what i came up with today after school.....
first of all this first peace....... it is actually meant to be interpreted a number of ways..... one is a message from god to us... another is a story of friendship, and lastly it can be interpreted as a story of a deep love, but anyway u interpret it, its basically about how some1 is always there for you...... now from which point of view i decided to write it from..... is something that will just be left unsaid =P
Gaurdian Angel
like a gaurdian angel; ill never leave your side
like a gaurdian angel; i will be the light
like a gaurdian angel; ill always be inside
your heart, to help you lead ya life
im with you through the hard times/ making sure that you are all fine/ helping you up when u fall behind/ because always and forever you are mine/ i'm here constantly watching over you/ working to have your hope renewed/ bring'n smiles to ya face that are long overdue/ n when i hear cries i rush over cuz i know its you/ so ill be holdn you/ wiping away each falling tear drop, always close to you/ im here to make all your fears stop owning you/ bringing you sweet dreams and chasing away the night mares/ you may feel alone at times but im always right there/ to fight scares/ and light stairs/ and hallways that are too dark to pass through in life/ i live each day with forever you in sight/ ill be that lone star to lead you through your nights/
like a gaurdian angel; ill never leave your side
like a gaurdian angel; i will be the light
like a gaurdian angel; ill always be inside
your heart, to help you lead ya life
and also i finished that one verse i posted last time..... ill bold the new parts... its basically a piece about violence and hate.... and how i think its totally wrong, basically i just added a few lines to finish up the first verse... and a hook that is partly taken from a korean hip hop song by LLK... its not that well known but just for integrity's sake im letting people know that some of the words in the hook were not written by me
brothers at war... what do you fight for?
vengeance is our only enemy
love is the cure... so why do we fight wars?
"cuz we gotta blame somebody" .....else....
that's it!, the lines crossed/ how can we find cause/ enough to kill when already we've had so many lives lost/ stop the clock! make time pause/ so we can remind all/ just how invaluable peace of mind costs/ cuz "an eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind"/ so how can you even try to kill your own kind/ stop spilling blood b4 there's no more time/ cuz humanity just cant afford more crime/ refugee's flee just to find a calm spot/ tryna get away from all the gun shots and dodge the bomb drops/ dont let this be a battle long fought/ where the fighting's nonstop/ cuz who's the a winner when 100's die cuz we bombed the wrong block?/ we're missn the point by a long shot/ we've got anthrax biological spore scares/ battln with highly technological warfare/ so where do we get when we lock-n-load? no where!/ terrosim is just a term we use to justify killing as defendn me/ but regretably/ the true identity/ of the enemy/ is most definately/ the lack of human compassion and integrity/ unfortunately it'll be only then they'll see/ that nothing was accomplished by hating with such intensity/
brothers at war... what do you fight for?
vengeance is our only enemy
love is the cure... so why do we fight wars?
"cuz we gotta blame somebody" .....else....
alright that's it.....
first of all this first peace....... it is actually meant to be interpreted a number of ways..... one is a message from god to us... another is a story of friendship, and lastly it can be interpreted as a story of a deep love, but anyway u interpret it, its basically about how some1 is always there for you...... now from which point of view i decided to write it from..... is something that will just be left unsaid =P
Gaurdian Angel
like a gaurdian angel; ill never leave your side
like a gaurdian angel; i will be the light
like a gaurdian angel; ill always be inside
your heart, to help you lead ya life
im with you through the hard times/ making sure that you are all fine/ helping you up when u fall behind/ because always and forever you are mine/ i'm here constantly watching over you/ working to have your hope renewed/ bring'n smiles to ya face that are long overdue/ n when i hear cries i rush over cuz i know its you/ so ill be holdn you/ wiping away each falling tear drop, always close to you/ im here to make all your fears stop owning you/ bringing you sweet dreams and chasing away the night mares/ you may feel alone at times but im always right there/ to fight scares/ and light stairs/ and hallways that are too dark to pass through in life/ i live each day with forever you in sight/ ill be that lone star to lead you through your nights/
like a gaurdian angel; ill never leave your side
like a gaurdian angel; i will be the light
like a gaurdian angel; ill always be inside
your heart, to help you lead ya life
and also i finished that one verse i posted last time..... ill bold the new parts... its basically a piece about violence and hate.... and how i think its totally wrong, basically i just added a few lines to finish up the first verse... and a hook that is partly taken from a korean hip hop song by LLK... its not that well known but just for integrity's sake im letting people know that some of the words in the hook were not written by me
brothers at war... what do you fight for?
vengeance is our only enemy
love is the cure... so why do we fight wars?
"cuz we gotta blame somebody" .....else....
that's it!, the lines crossed/ how can we find cause/ enough to kill when already we've had so many lives lost/ stop the clock! make time pause/ so we can remind all/ just how invaluable peace of mind costs/ cuz "an eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind"/ so how can you even try to kill your own kind/ stop spilling blood b4 there's no more time/ cuz humanity just cant afford more crime/ refugee's flee just to find a calm spot/ tryna get away from all the gun shots and dodge the bomb drops/ dont let this be a battle long fought/ where the fighting's nonstop/ cuz who's the a winner when 100's die cuz we bombed the wrong block?/ we're missn the point by a long shot/ we've got anthrax biological spore scares/ battln with highly technological warfare/ so where do we get when we lock-n-load? no where!/ terrosim is just a term we use to justify killing as defendn me/ but regretably/ the true identity/ of the enemy/ is most definately/ the lack of human compassion and integrity/ unfortunately it'll be only then they'll see/ that nothing was accomplished by hating with such intensity/
brothers at war... what do you fight for?
vengeance is our only enemy
love is the cure... so why do we fight wars?
"cuz we gotta blame somebody" .....else....
alright that's it.....
Friday, November 09, 2001
hey everyone..... this is gonna be a much shorter update this time... but yea during the last two periods of school today i was really bored and i had a lil free time at the end of both so i came up with this small verse.... peep it, its just about fighting in general obviously inspired by all these terrorist counterstrikes what not.... hit me with your thoughts ....
that's it!, the lines crossed/ how can we find cause/ enough to kill when already we've had so many lives lost/ stop the clock! make time pause/ so we can remind all/ just how invaluable peace of mind costs/ cuz "an eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind"/ so how can you even try to kill your own kind/ stop spilling blood b4 there's no more time/ cuz humanity just cant afford more crime/ refugee's flee just to find a calm spot/ tryna get away from all the gun shots and dodge the bomb drops/ dont let this be a battle long fought/ where the fighting's nonstop/ cuz is there a winner when 100's die cuz we bombed the wrong block?/ we're missn the point by a long shot/ we've got anthrax biological spore scares/ battln with highly technological warfare/....
that's all i got done.... ill finish up when i have time again...
that's it!, the lines crossed/ how can we find cause/ enough to kill when already we've had so many lives lost/ stop the clock! make time pause/ so we can remind all/ just how invaluable peace of mind costs/ cuz "an eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind"/ so how can you even try to kill your own kind/ stop spilling blood b4 there's no more time/ cuz humanity just cant afford more crime/ refugee's flee just to find a calm spot/ tryna get away from all the gun shots and dodge the bomb drops/ dont let this be a battle long fought/ where the fighting's nonstop/ cuz is there a winner when 100's die cuz we bombed the wrong block?/ we're missn the point by a long shot/ we've got anthrax biological spore scares/ battln with highly technological warfare/....
that's all i got done.... ill finish up when i have time again...
Monday, November 05, 2001
hey what's up everyone.... i guess this post'll be in two sections. one is the usual telling of what's been going on, the other will be more a less a stream of random thoughts so yea... heh have fun
well not much has been going on, basically the first quarter of my senior yr is coming to a close, 3 quarters left of high school, i believe 126 days of school left for me, it prob wont really hit me until next spring tho, when its close to graduation..... anyhow yea im just tryna finish this semester on a positive note since its pretty much the last one to count before i send off most my apps to college.....
hmm ah yes the revival that i had been talking of so much took place this past weekend, and it was quite an experience, i was expecting great things from god, and i believe nothing less than that happened... great things.... i guess ill give a quick rundown of the weekend as a whole...
alright so basically friday i got of school, sat back and relaxed, watched tv or something, then my friend calls from his friend's house where his breakdance crew was practicing and tells me he needs a ride to the revival cuz he just lost his other ride, so i get up and i go to pick him up and then to the revival where i had to go early to help setup and for a prayer meeting..... unfortunaltely in the middle of the prayer meeting i had to leave early cuz i promised my friend id pick him up and well the meeting started late so yea, i left and picked him up and we came to church, and the revival started.... a praise band from another local church played for us and oh man are they awesome, they totally knew what praise was all about, and they really helped to start off the revival with a worshipful attitude, then our jundo (pastor) gave a msg and it was something that at first wasnt really hitting me, but towards the end, after doing a lil deeper soul searching i realized it really did apply to me, and im praying that these revelations will evoke some positive changes in my life... well after the msg and prayer time, we had close praise and once again praise was off the hook, unfortunately i had to leave early cuz the revival was going so overtime and i had sat II's the next morning and i promised my friend id stop by her birthday just to at least give her my best wishes... so i did just that but my friend didnt want me to leave without doing one song on her karoake machine... and cuz of the revival and praise my voice was gone.... but eh i gave in and im pretty sure afterwards she'd rather have me go home haha, i was so off, anyhow it was fun and that was that and i came home hit the sack......
i woke up saturday and was like screw it, ill take as shower and clean up after the sat II's... cuz eh who cares, haha so i just went scrubby as anything and took my writing test, it wasnt that bad but i suppose the scores will be the judge of that, then i came home and just did random stuff, some hw here and there, some studying, some resting... then i call up my friend and we go chill at the mall for a lil bit cuz he wanted some new bball shoes, i pick up my sister and finally evening arrives where day 2 of the revival starts, well once again things were off to a rather late start, and there was a lot of time to kill cuz i went early again to help out and for the prayer meeting but nothing started ontime..... but it was really phat cuz my friends from VA (diana, hanna and lily) along with one of diana's friend from nearby came for the revival that night and i was so happy they could make it, anyhow haha they were really anxious to meet new ppl but stupid MD ppl are all shy to newcomers so even after i intro'd they shy away... grrrrr i felt bad, PLUS i had to leave them alone for like 15 minutes cuz the prayer meeting started but its all good, they survived^^, but yea uhm i came back and the revival started for the night, praise was even TITER then the night b4.... the msg was less funny this time but oh so much deeper, talking of how we must meet god in our most simple and broken forms cuz it is through our weaknesses he helps us find strength, it was another great msg, and after that we had a time of prayer again, and well this time i wasnt as invovled in prayer during this time and i mainly focused on still praising but i noticed that my va driends were really bonding through prayer, it felt really good to see that for them, well this tiem i got to stay for the whole thing and afterwords we had fellowship/snack time downstairs, and a bunch of us went to mcdonalds to get some late night grub and it was fun just chilling, but it was getting late so at least i went home and called it a night.. and what a great night it was
sunday was the 6th birthday of my church, we had a joint service along with some good food and i came home and that was that^^
alright now to my stream of random thoughts....
*sunday night i watched a movie. "someone like you"... i guess id recommend it, it was pretty decent, not a stinker like most of the movies ive been watching lately, plus ashley judd is a real qt in the movie haha, anyhow at the very end the two main protagonist lovers finally find one another and they pose a somewhat rhetorical question to one another, one asked "im thinking, what have we got to lose" the other replied ." uhm... everything?" and the first person replied with "exactly"..... haha for some reason those lines stuck with me, and its something ive been thinking about.... i suppose along with the questions and revelations posed in my heart and mind from the revival, it made me think, in life what have we got to lose when we make decisions..... everything..... that is what makes life life..... anyways it jsut got me thinking about how, we cant play it safe in life, resisting complacency cuz we are comfortable with what we have is something we need to struggle with, indeed we must at one point lose everything to find what we truly do have and what we have been blessed with from god...... a paradox in a sense yet seemingly completely logical and coherent i could go on but im sure it'd bore you
*you know human emotions are a very, interesting to say the least and puzzling thing, at least for me i find myself very.... i dunno haha its just i guess basically im somwhat of a girl crazy type person, i mean of course i have my on times and off times, but lately the yuj's (girls) have been in my head quite a bit, basically i can narrow down the attraction to two girls, one is some1 im good friends with and i dunno, i mean i guess she's just been some1 always in the back of my mind for a while now, the other is some1 im not yet that close with but god she's such a great girl, i mean both of them are great girls haha, but yea.... im up a friggn tree, it looks like imma have to just sit back and wait these "crushes" out like i do basically every other time...... haha i dunno, basically i think girls look for one type of thing in a guy... not me...... haha eh oh well sooner or later i know good things'll come^^ just be patient and pray about it i suppose...
anyhow i have more thoughts but perhaps later, im tired of typing...... tata
well not much has been going on, basically the first quarter of my senior yr is coming to a close, 3 quarters left of high school, i believe 126 days of school left for me, it prob wont really hit me until next spring tho, when its close to graduation..... anyhow yea im just tryna finish this semester on a positive note since its pretty much the last one to count before i send off most my apps to college.....
hmm ah yes the revival that i had been talking of so much took place this past weekend, and it was quite an experience, i was expecting great things from god, and i believe nothing less than that happened... great things.... i guess ill give a quick rundown of the weekend as a whole...
alright so basically friday i got of school, sat back and relaxed, watched tv or something, then my friend calls from his friend's house where his breakdance crew was practicing and tells me he needs a ride to the revival cuz he just lost his other ride, so i get up and i go to pick him up and then to the revival where i had to go early to help setup and for a prayer meeting..... unfortunaltely in the middle of the prayer meeting i had to leave early cuz i promised my friend id pick him up and well the meeting started late so yea, i left and picked him up and we came to church, and the revival started.... a praise band from another local church played for us and oh man are they awesome, they totally knew what praise was all about, and they really helped to start off the revival with a worshipful attitude, then our jundo (pastor) gave a msg and it was something that at first wasnt really hitting me, but towards the end, after doing a lil deeper soul searching i realized it really did apply to me, and im praying that these revelations will evoke some positive changes in my life... well after the msg and prayer time, we had close praise and once again praise was off the hook, unfortunately i had to leave early cuz the revival was going so overtime and i had sat II's the next morning and i promised my friend id stop by her birthday just to at least give her my best wishes... so i did just that but my friend didnt want me to leave without doing one song on her karoake machine... and cuz of the revival and praise my voice was gone.... but eh i gave in and im pretty sure afterwards she'd rather have me go home haha, i was so off, anyhow it was fun and that was that and i came home hit the sack......
i woke up saturday and was like screw it, ill take as shower and clean up after the sat II's... cuz eh who cares, haha so i just went scrubby as anything and took my writing test, it wasnt that bad but i suppose the scores will be the judge of that, then i came home and just did random stuff, some hw here and there, some studying, some resting... then i call up my friend and we go chill at the mall for a lil bit cuz he wanted some new bball shoes, i pick up my sister and finally evening arrives where day 2 of the revival starts, well once again things were off to a rather late start, and there was a lot of time to kill cuz i went early again to help out and for the prayer meeting but nothing started ontime..... but it was really phat cuz my friends from VA (diana, hanna and lily) along with one of diana's friend from nearby came for the revival that night and i was so happy they could make it, anyhow haha they were really anxious to meet new ppl but stupid MD ppl are all shy to newcomers so even after i intro'd they shy away... grrrrr i felt bad, PLUS i had to leave them alone for like 15 minutes cuz the prayer meeting started but its all good, they survived^^, but yea uhm i came back and the revival started for the night, praise was even TITER then the night b4.... the msg was less funny this time but oh so much deeper, talking of how we must meet god in our most simple and broken forms cuz it is through our weaknesses he helps us find strength, it was another great msg, and after that we had a time of prayer again, and well this time i wasnt as invovled in prayer during this time and i mainly focused on still praising but i noticed that my va driends were really bonding through prayer, it felt really good to see that for them, well this tiem i got to stay for the whole thing and afterwords we had fellowship/snack time downstairs, and a bunch of us went to mcdonalds to get some late night grub and it was fun just chilling, but it was getting late so at least i went home and called it a night.. and what a great night it was
sunday was the 6th birthday of my church, we had a joint service along with some good food and i came home and that was that^^
alright now to my stream of random thoughts....
*sunday night i watched a movie. "someone like you"... i guess id recommend it, it was pretty decent, not a stinker like most of the movies ive been watching lately, plus ashley judd is a real qt in the movie haha, anyhow at the very end the two main protagonist lovers finally find one another and they pose a somewhat rhetorical question to one another, one asked "im thinking, what have we got to lose" the other replied ." uhm... everything?" and the first person replied with "exactly"..... haha for some reason those lines stuck with me, and its something ive been thinking about.... i suppose along with the questions and revelations posed in my heart and mind from the revival, it made me think, in life what have we got to lose when we make decisions..... everything..... that is what makes life life..... anyways it jsut got me thinking about how, we cant play it safe in life, resisting complacency cuz we are comfortable with what we have is something we need to struggle with, indeed we must at one point lose everything to find what we truly do have and what we have been blessed with from god...... a paradox in a sense yet seemingly completely logical and coherent i could go on but im sure it'd bore you
*you know human emotions are a very, interesting to say the least and puzzling thing, at least for me i find myself very.... i dunno haha its just i guess basically im somwhat of a girl crazy type person, i mean of course i have my on times and off times, but lately the yuj's (girls) have been in my head quite a bit, basically i can narrow down the attraction to two girls, one is some1 im good friends with and i dunno, i mean i guess she's just been some1 always in the back of my mind for a while now, the other is some1 im not yet that close with but god she's such a great girl, i mean both of them are great girls haha, but yea.... im up a friggn tree, it looks like imma have to just sit back and wait these "crushes" out like i do basically every other time...... haha i dunno, basically i think girls look for one type of thing in a guy... not me...... haha eh oh well sooner or later i know good things'll come^^ just be patient and pray about it i suppose...
anyhow i have more thoughts but perhaps later, im tired of typing...... tata
Monday, October 29, 2001
haha.... well this thing has had a lack of updates for two reaons.....
1) ive been extremely lazy
and 2) nothing all that exciting has been going on.....
BUT ppl have been yelling at me to update it cuz apparantly everyone has nothign better to do then read this haha so in order to take up space im prob gonna just write a whole bunch of random nonsense :p so bear with me.....
hmmm.. well first of all i had sat's a couple weeks ago and i think it went alright..... however interseting enough those who were able to retrieve their scores early, have all seem to have gone up in their score.... i hope the same correlation applies to me as well, but annoyingly enough the stupid college board hasnt made mine available... grrr, hehe anyhow i got sat II's this weekend so wish me luck on that ^^
hmm... last tuesday i turned 17 hehe, yes october 23 was my birthday aka mol day hehe, anyways i didnt want anyone to feel obligated to get me stuff for my bday but i was so surprised and realized i have the greatest friends in the world ! :-), i guess once again id like to thanks everyone for showing me so much love hehe, it was a very nice way to turn 17... ack! my last yr as a kid... but yea, thanks to irene and soyoung for the cookies and the wonderful crank call haha.... to cat for all the yummy snacks... sheesh everyone's tryna give me a heart attack... to trisha and seyeon and ashley for their wonderful cards, no matter how crudely constructed some may have been ;-), to daniel for the wonderful prep white boy shirt... its time i change my wordrobe styles.... struttn my stuff in AE gear aw yea, to charles and jean for the phat keychain with my name in it incase i ever forget it, and to everyone who just gave me their best wishes and love!.... aah yes i cant forget my boys at school, for remembering my birthday and giving me the bruises on my arm to show it..... haha...
well... its that time of my life. where im applying to colleges, i really hope that wherever i go to(aka whoever has enough pity to accept me) is somewhere where god wants me to be, and that i be able to still juggle the rest of my life and the stress of college apps at once hehe....
well this seems to be somewhat of a down time, a lot of my friends are struggling with issues, so i guess i just really pray that they can stay strong and try to keep a positive mentality.... alright? and on the real, if u need me, u kno where to find me. give me a ring, or whatever, we can chat, cuz "ill be there for you, when the rain starts to pour, ill be there for you, like ive been there before" haha... sorry as i said this would be really random
ah here's some more irrelevant thoughts..... i got my license last winter, in early december so technically ive never driven during the fall, so this is the first time ive been driving during the autumn season..... and i have GOT TO SAY, driving during a crisp bright autumn day has to be one of the coolest things ever.... with all the different colors on the trees and leaves flying everywhere and the sun punching holes through the trees, with the music up and the window cracked bringing in a clear breeze...... oh man that's life hehe..... it ranks right up there with driving at night... speaking of which my friend michelle and i had a conversation, and we agreed that one of the coolest things ever is to be just with soem1 to talk to while driving aimleslly around at night, with soothing music and hours of great conversation...... what you think?
uhm what else is going on.... OH YES...revival... this coming friday an saturday i am SO looking forward to that.... to anyone planning to come or IS coming, please remember to have your hearts and spirits in the right place ok? come for a time of worship, a time of fellowship, a time with god..... ok? and pray everyday that this revival be off the hook..... and get excited! i mean what is there not the be excited about? NCFC English Minsitry is supposedly an incredible praise team, and they are leading praise! get ready to break it down, jump around and get jiggy wit god! MUAHAHA ! haha and seriously, i think this whole thing is gonna be an amazing experience.... to those of you interested in coming here is the lil.... information thing...
OnFire Ministries 2001 Fall Revival
11.2.3.......
"See The Scars"
November 2nd and 3rd
7-10pm
contact me for info....
alright? i hope to see you guys there, as i said if u want to come and be with god just hit me up on AIM or talk to me in person hehe
alrights well that's all for now.... if i think of more crap to put in ill do it later k?
peace out.... god bless
1) ive been extremely lazy
and 2) nothing all that exciting has been going on.....
BUT ppl have been yelling at me to update it cuz apparantly everyone has nothign better to do then read this haha so in order to take up space im prob gonna just write a whole bunch of random nonsense :p so bear with me.....
hmmm.. well first of all i had sat's a couple weeks ago and i think it went alright..... however interseting enough those who were able to retrieve their scores early, have all seem to have gone up in their score.... i hope the same correlation applies to me as well, but annoyingly enough the stupid college board hasnt made mine available... grrr, hehe anyhow i got sat II's this weekend so wish me luck on that ^^
hmm... last tuesday i turned 17 hehe, yes october 23 was my birthday aka mol day hehe, anyways i didnt want anyone to feel obligated to get me stuff for my bday but i was so surprised and realized i have the greatest friends in the world ! :-), i guess once again id like to thanks everyone for showing me so much love hehe, it was a very nice way to turn 17... ack! my last yr as a kid... but yea, thanks to irene and soyoung for the cookies and the wonderful crank call haha.... to cat for all the yummy snacks... sheesh everyone's tryna give me a heart attack... to trisha and seyeon and ashley for their wonderful cards, no matter how crudely constructed some may have been ;-), to daniel for the wonderful prep white boy shirt... its time i change my wordrobe styles.... struttn my stuff in AE gear aw yea, to charles and jean for the phat keychain with my name in it incase i ever forget it, and to everyone who just gave me their best wishes and love!.... aah yes i cant forget my boys at school, for remembering my birthday and giving me the bruises on my arm to show it..... haha...
well... its that time of my life. where im applying to colleges, i really hope that wherever i go to(aka whoever has enough pity to accept me) is somewhere where god wants me to be, and that i be able to still juggle the rest of my life and the stress of college apps at once hehe....
well this seems to be somewhat of a down time, a lot of my friends are struggling with issues, so i guess i just really pray that they can stay strong and try to keep a positive mentality.... alright? and on the real, if u need me, u kno where to find me. give me a ring, or whatever, we can chat, cuz "ill be there for you, when the rain starts to pour, ill be there for you, like ive been there before" haha... sorry as i said this would be really random
ah here's some more irrelevant thoughts..... i got my license last winter, in early december so technically ive never driven during the fall, so this is the first time ive been driving during the autumn season..... and i have GOT TO SAY, driving during a crisp bright autumn day has to be one of the coolest things ever.... with all the different colors on the trees and leaves flying everywhere and the sun punching holes through the trees, with the music up and the window cracked bringing in a clear breeze...... oh man that's life hehe..... it ranks right up there with driving at night... speaking of which my friend michelle and i had a conversation, and we agreed that one of the coolest things ever is to be just with soem1 to talk to while driving aimleslly around at night, with soothing music and hours of great conversation...... what you think?
uhm what else is going on.... OH YES...revival... this coming friday an saturday i am SO looking forward to that.... to anyone planning to come or IS coming, please remember to have your hearts and spirits in the right place ok? come for a time of worship, a time of fellowship, a time with god..... ok? and pray everyday that this revival be off the hook..... and get excited! i mean what is there not the be excited about? NCFC English Minsitry is supposedly an incredible praise team, and they are leading praise! get ready to break it down, jump around and get jiggy wit god! MUAHAHA ! haha and seriously, i think this whole thing is gonna be an amazing experience.... to those of you interested in coming here is the lil.... information thing...
OnFire Ministries 2001 Fall Revival
11.2.3.......
"See The Scars"
November 2nd and 3rd
7-10pm
contact me for info....
alright? i hope to see you guys there, as i said if u want to come and be with god just hit me up on AIM or talk to me in person hehe
alrights well that's all for now.... if i think of more crap to put in ill do it later k?
peace out.... god bless
Sunday, October 07, 2001
hey hey, i guess this has sort of turned into a weekly updated thing, ill try to do it more frequently......
hmm.... well this past week was spirit week, cuz homecoming was yesterday (saturday), and no i didnt go this yr...... actually i havnt gone any year but yea haha its all good..... i tried to get dates this yr but due to some conflicting circumstances neither of the two friends i had asked could go.... but its fine cuz i had a great day that day anyhow....
but in terms of the week, during all the class spirit competition, seniors won! YEA!. puahah yea sike i didnt care that much, but i bought a senior tshirt for the heck of it... and well it was the first 5 day week of the yr so it seemed so darn long.... anyhow not a whole lot happen cuz the entire school was too swamped with homecoming related activities....... oooh yea actually during the week a friend of mine from VA(eunice) intro'd me to this girl online, we got to talkn and stuff and she seemed really cool, (not to mention extremely cute haha, BUT NO, chill out, just saying from a strictly observational POV. i know what your thinkn....-_-;), anyways i had a free weekend so i decided to visit eunice's church in VA and hang out with some richmond ppl...
saturday: as i siad above i wasnt going to homecoming this yr, so i decided to go saturday down to VA and meet up with my friend and make some new ones^^, it was a lotta fun, im glad i went down, i got to meet lily (the girl eunice intro'd me to), and me her and eunice all chilled in various places, had lunch, went to lily's cousin's house and jumped around on the trampoline (i got flipped off haha), but while we were doing that, these two white kids were having some backyard kombat, beating one naother to death with broom sticks and rakes and jump kicking one naother in the ehad, so we all stopped jumping and just watched for like a half hour hahaha, it was hilrous.... then we went to their church (emmaus Kumc) and i attended their sat night bible (bibble... dont ask) study, and we all went out to eat PHO..... it was a fun day, made lotsa new friends and got to know lily better as well as chill with eunice who i see only a few times a yr.... all in all i had a lot of fun....basically cuz lily and diana and her cousin hanna are the prob nicest most outgoing ppl ive ever really met, from the start it was just so easygoing and chill and wasnt really awkward at all.......and lily and diana gave me some "fashion tips" haha..... diana kept rolling my pants up and saying "muhshisuh" ... haha then on the way back.... i had to drive home, but there was like no traffic so i drove almost 100 sometimes haha, oh man, and i cut almost 30 min's off the time it took me to get to VA.... and yea i got home, picked up my sister and her date from HC, took em home and called it a day...... but my back was killing me oh man from sitting in that darn car for ever..... oh yea and haha i noticed after hitting about 80 in my car or so, it gets really loud puhahaha, well i guess that's what happens with a wonderful almighty powerful corolla... and yea... that was pretty much the highlight of my week.....
sunday: then i went to church..... came home.... slept for like 3 hours haha, and got up... now im doing this.......^^.... ok that's it for now
tata!
ohhh yea i was reading something and i just wanted to share a lil bit of wisdom.......
"Sometimes life can be like a lemon. Life can be hard sometimes, bitter and yucky like a lemon. But it doesn't have to be that way. In the Bible, Jesus says that He wants us to have better lives. If we have Jesus in our lives and live the way He lived, then our lives can be so much happier and better. Just like adding sugar to the lemon juice makes it sweeter, we need to add Jesus to our lives to make them better. And how do we add Jesus to our lives? By praying, asking Him to come into our hearts and by learning His teachings in the Bible. "
woooooooord
k now im done, bye!
hmm.... well this past week was spirit week, cuz homecoming was yesterday (saturday), and no i didnt go this yr...... actually i havnt gone any year but yea haha its all good..... i tried to get dates this yr but due to some conflicting circumstances neither of the two friends i had asked could go.... but its fine cuz i had a great day that day anyhow....
but in terms of the week, during all the class spirit competition, seniors won! YEA!. puahah yea sike i didnt care that much, but i bought a senior tshirt for the heck of it... and well it was the first 5 day week of the yr so it seemed so darn long.... anyhow not a whole lot happen cuz the entire school was too swamped with homecoming related activities....... oooh yea actually during the week a friend of mine from VA(eunice) intro'd me to this girl online, we got to talkn and stuff and she seemed really cool, (not to mention extremely cute haha, BUT NO, chill out, just saying from a strictly observational POV. i know what your thinkn....-_-;), anyways i had a free weekend so i decided to visit eunice's church in VA and hang out with some richmond ppl...
saturday: as i siad above i wasnt going to homecoming this yr, so i decided to go saturday down to VA and meet up with my friend and make some new ones^^, it was a lotta fun, im glad i went down, i got to meet lily (the girl eunice intro'd me to), and me her and eunice all chilled in various places, had lunch, went to lily's cousin's house and jumped around on the trampoline (i got flipped off haha), but while we were doing that, these two white kids were having some backyard kombat, beating one naother to death with broom sticks and rakes and jump kicking one naother in the ehad, so we all stopped jumping and just watched for like a half hour hahaha, it was hilrous.... then we went to their church (emmaus Kumc) and i attended their sat night bible (bibble... dont ask) study, and we all went out to eat PHO..... it was a fun day, made lotsa new friends and got to know lily better as well as chill with eunice who i see only a few times a yr.... all in all i had a lot of fun....basically cuz lily and diana and her cousin hanna are the prob nicest most outgoing ppl ive ever really met, from the start it was just so easygoing and chill and wasnt really awkward at all.......and lily and diana gave me some "fashion tips" haha..... diana kept rolling my pants up and saying "muhshisuh" ... haha then on the way back.... i had to drive home, but there was like no traffic so i drove almost 100 sometimes haha, oh man, and i cut almost 30 min's off the time it took me to get to VA.... and yea i got home, picked up my sister and her date from HC, took em home and called it a day...... but my back was killing me oh man from sitting in that darn car for ever..... oh yea and haha i noticed after hitting about 80 in my car or so, it gets really loud puhahaha, well i guess that's what happens with a wonderful almighty powerful corolla... and yea... that was pretty much the highlight of my week.....
sunday: then i went to church..... came home.... slept for like 3 hours haha, and got up... now im doing this.......^^.... ok that's it for now
tata!
ohhh yea i was reading something and i just wanted to share a lil bit of wisdom.......
"Sometimes life can be like a lemon. Life can be hard sometimes, bitter and yucky like a lemon. But it doesn't have to be that way. In the Bible, Jesus says that He wants us to have better lives. If we have Jesus in our lives and live the way He lived, then our lives can be so much happier and better. Just like adding sugar to the lemon juice makes it sweeter, we need to add Jesus to our lives to make them better. And how do we add Jesus to our lives? By praying, asking Him to come into our hearts and by learning His teachings in the Bible. "
woooooooord
k now im done, bye!
Sunday, September 30, 2001
dang i havnt posted for a while.... aight here how my week has been....
saturday: this is LAST saturday..... the 22nd?..... i think that's right. anyhow i went to a local break dance tournament called breakers delight in silver spring.... that junx was phat... it cost 10 bux to get in but it was one of the tighest things ive ever seen..... well i guess cuz ive never been to anything like it b4 and the only breaking ive seen is my friends basically.... and i personally am a lil too hefty to break..... but it was a lotta fun... the judgers were these two guys from rock steady crew... they were sorta old.... but they could move for older dudes..... but they were pretty bad judges and messed the brackets up a lot..... anyhow that was that, and im looking forward to going to the next one.....
wednesday: this was the day b4 yom kippur... anyhow i had probably the two hardest tests ive ever taken in my entire life.... one in ap bio and the other in ap world history.... especially the world history one... that junx was crucial..... this one guys named paco brito.... (we call him taco burrito hehe), anyways he's prob the guy with the biggest brain in my senior class... yea he got the highest score.... of 78!.... im scared as to what i got.... i find out soon........
friday - saturday: i had my church lockin..... it was fun, me being the only senior made it kinda weird cuz a lot of the jr's left early and didnt stay the night, so i didnt have a ton of ppl my age but i got to bond with some of the younger kids.... hehe, but still there were some mad fun parts... and other not so fun parts... but it was cool..... and there was so much friggn food, cuz it was also a potluck haha.....
yea that sums up my week..... not much to say..... aight im out for now peace
saturday: this is LAST saturday..... the 22nd?..... i think that's right. anyhow i went to a local break dance tournament called breakers delight in silver spring.... that junx was phat... it cost 10 bux to get in but it was one of the tighest things ive ever seen..... well i guess cuz ive never been to anything like it b4 and the only breaking ive seen is my friends basically.... and i personally am a lil too hefty to break..... but it was a lotta fun... the judgers were these two guys from rock steady crew... they were sorta old.... but they could move for older dudes..... but they were pretty bad judges and messed the brackets up a lot..... anyhow that was that, and im looking forward to going to the next one.....
wednesday: this was the day b4 yom kippur... anyhow i had probably the two hardest tests ive ever taken in my entire life.... one in ap bio and the other in ap world history.... especially the world history one... that junx was crucial..... this one guys named paco brito.... (we call him taco burrito hehe), anyways he's prob the guy with the biggest brain in my senior class... yea he got the highest score.... of 78!.... im scared as to what i got.... i find out soon........
friday - saturday: i had my church lockin..... it was fun, me being the only senior made it kinda weird cuz a lot of the jr's left early and didnt stay the night, so i didnt have a ton of ppl my age but i got to bond with some of the younger kids.... hehe, but still there were some mad fun parts... and other not so fun parts... but it was cool..... and there was so much friggn food, cuz it was also a potluck haha.....
yea that sums up my week..... not much to say..... aight im out for now peace
Wednesday, September 19, 2001
here's a rap i wrote for a VOICES unit in english class... we had to express ourselves through any medium, so i chose lyricism.... ne wayz i presented it today but i was nervous as ddong, but i ended up doing ok.... just stuttered a lot in the begenning and i had to keep my voice from shaking or cracking haha...... but it was a good experience.....
I'll leave ya mind in contortions/ forcn it into small portions/ a form of mental extortion/ leavn ya head disproportioned/ cuz in a showcase of lyrical skill/ im here for the kill/ if this doesnt convince ya, not even a miracle will/ droppn words like mike tyson in a spelling bee/ committing verbal felonys/ then acquitted of all penaltys/cuz matter of fact is/ I'm a master of verbal tactics/ and no matter how hard you practice/ you'll still be like fat kids tryna pass gymnastics/ cuz you'll never be able to surpass or match this/ trying would be as useless as give a blind man a pair of glasses
cuz I use words of rhyme/ to submerge the mind/ & converge the lines/ in expressing what lurks inside/ although works of mine contain no cursing lines/ i keep diversive rhymes/ connected like cursive lines/ using methodical ways/ to create audible waves/ worth more then what a pot of gold weighs/ cuz i gotta go wait/ for the probable day/ when the holy father'll save/ speakin of foretold dramas/ like nostradamus/ to verbally emancipate those among us/ cuz ya tried to find the sum of my parts but overlooked the total/ if a picture's worth a thousand words then i wrote a book of foto's/ (last line is credited to drunken tiger's micki eyez... [from knockout kings].. it just fit too well for me not to use )
anyways yesterday (tuesday) i just chilled with my youth pastor.... we had lunch talked about a lot of stuff, from movies to of course our church and its youth group as well as how im doing in life and so forth.. my jundo (pastor) has to be one of the greatest guys i know...... anyways then i went to the dentist and came home and was bored all day.. ( i didnt have school cuz it was rosh hoshana and i suppose we have a pretty big jewish population in our area to get these holiday's off hehe).... anyhow that was my past two days.. not very exciting... aight im oouuuuut........
oh yea....... now im tryna think of who to ask to home coming again..... bah humbug haha this is hard.....
I'll leave ya mind in contortions/ forcn it into small portions/ a form of mental extortion/ leavn ya head disproportioned/ cuz in a showcase of lyrical skill/ im here for the kill/ if this doesnt convince ya, not even a miracle will/ droppn words like mike tyson in a spelling bee/ committing verbal felonys/ then acquitted of all penaltys/cuz matter of fact is/ I'm a master of verbal tactics/ and no matter how hard you practice/ you'll still be like fat kids tryna pass gymnastics/ cuz you'll never be able to surpass or match this/ trying would be as useless as give a blind man a pair of glasses
cuz I use words of rhyme/ to submerge the mind/ & converge the lines/ in expressing what lurks inside/ although works of mine contain no cursing lines/ i keep diversive rhymes/ connected like cursive lines/ using methodical ways/ to create audible waves/ worth more then what a pot of gold weighs/ cuz i gotta go wait/ for the probable day/ when the holy father'll save/ speakin of foretold dramas/ like nostradamus/ to verbally emancipate those among us/ cuz ya tried to find the sum of my parts but overlooked the total/ if a picture's worth a thousand words then i wrote a book of foto's/ (last line is credited to drunken tiger's micki eyez... [from knockout kings].. it just fit too well for me not to use )
anyways yesterday (tuesday) i just chilled with my youth pastor.... we had lunch talked about a lot of stuff, from movies to of course our church and its youth group as well as how im doing in life and so forth.. my jundo (pastor) has to be one of the greatest guys i know...... anyways then i went to the dentist and came home and was bored all day.. ( i didnt have school cuz it was rosh hoshana and i suppose we have a pretty big jewish population in our area to get these holiday's off hehe).... anyhow that was my past two days.. not very exciting... aight im oouuuuut........
oh yea....... now im tryna think of who to ask to home coming again..... bah humbug haha this is hard.....
Sunday, September 16, 2001
haha ive had somewhat of an amusing weekend..... this is how it went
friday night:... i was gonna go out with some friends, play some putt putt and what not.... but then one girl was too lazy and butt tired, so she dropped out, so then the other girl dropped out...... haha leaving just me and my friend daniel.... but then daniel goes to play tennis with some other ppl, so im all alone with nothing to do.... so i go out and drive around to get some air.... and i just decide to rent a video.... while looking around i just decide to pick up josie and the pussycats which wasnt nearly as bad as id thought it be.... but yea.... it was pretty good.... decent, fun but light movie.... and that made my evening..... watching josie at home... woohoo!.... bah
saturday: well.... ive been planning to ask my friend to homecoming for about a week now..... and well i decided i WAS gonna do it friday in school... but guess what? being the dork i am i chickend out! haha so i was thinking.... OK your gonna do it next time you see her.... and so i was just online during the day and my friend signs on.... so im like ok cool, we can chill and then ill ask her... so we made arrangements to meet up... but then as on my way to her house to pick her up she calls my cell and says another friend of ours wants to come to... so of course i said its fine cuz i mean she's our friend haha, but in my head i was like DARN IT... now how can i ask haha.... (cuz i really thought it'd be best to ask in person).... anyhow so i pick em both up, we ended up chilling for a lil while..... but while they were in dunkn donuts i decided to call my friend soyoung for some help..... haha and i was like gosh darn it now waht am i gonna do! haha so she got mad at me for being so stupid and for being so chicken, and then she calmed me down and told me to ask if i get the chance...... so then its time for everyone to go home so i drop off the other friend first, so maybe i can ask my friend b4 i drop her off...... but no haha, i didnt say nething and i wussed out AGAIN.... and just dropped her off.... and im thinking..... hmmmmm haha i wussed out again... darn it.... and i start to head home, but then i decided NOOOO NOW OR NEVER haha and i turn around and walk up to her door and asked her..... haha well from the get go she didnt really wanna go.... and i knew that, but i just thought we'd have fun together so MAYBE she'd change her mind u know?..... but yea she didnt say NO but she said she'd think about it, and that's all i could ask of her ^^... the rest of the day was my saturday night program at church and that was fun... then i came home and slept hehe
sunday: well i went to church, came home, slept, started hw, went to drop some papers off at this one girl's house for ap biology, then came home and just did whatever.... haha hw and chill and hw and some more chilling.... then i get online and my friend who i asked to hc is on, and actually we didnt bring up the subject for a while.... but eventually we got around to it... haha and GUESS WHAT?..... she said no..... but its fine hehe, i mean i figured id just try anyways, but she was really sweet for at least reconsidering things b4 she just said no.... and yea hehe i mean i have to admit i am a tad dissapointed but its all good, its just back to brainstorming to find some1 to ask to homecoming...... but i guess i understand where she's coming from and everything so i guess everything is gravy hehe.... and now i have to get back to hw cuz my sister is tryna kill me for the internet....
well that was my weekend! tata!
friday night:... i was gonna go out with some friends, play some putt putt and what not.... but then one girl was too lazy and butt tired, so she dropped out, so then the other girl dropped out...... haha leaving just me and my friend daniel.... but then daniel goes to play tennis with some other ppl, so im all alone with nothing to do.... so i go out and drive around to get some air.... and i just decide to rent a video.... while looking around i just decide to pick up josie and the pussycats which wasnt nearly as bad as id thought it be.... but yea.... it was pretty good.... decent, fun but light movie.... and that made my evening..... watching josie at home... woohoo!.... bah
saturday: well.... ive been planning to ask my friend to homecoming for about a week now..... and well i decided i WAS gonna do it friday in school... but guess what? being the dork i am i chickend out! haha so i was thinking.... OK your gonna do it next time you see her.... and so i was just online during the day and my friend signs on.... so im like ok cool, we can chill and then ill ask her... so we made arrangements to meet up... but then as on my way to her house to pick her up she calls my cell and says another friend of ours wants to come to... so of course i said its fine cuz i mean she's our friend haha, but in my head i was like DARN IT... now how can i ask haha.... (cuz i really thought it'd be best to ask in person).... anyhow so i pick em both up, we ended up chilling for a lil while..... but while they were in dunkn donuts i decided to call my friend soyoung for some help..... haha and i was like gosh darn it now waht am i gonna do! haha so she got mad at me for being so stupid and for being so chicken, and then she calmed me down and told me to ask if i get the chance...... so then its time for everyone to go home so i drop off the other friend first, so maybe i can ask my friend b4 i drop her off...... but no haha, i didnt say nething and i wussed out AGAIN.... and just dropped her off.... and im thinking..... hmmmmm haha i wussed out again... darn it.... and i start to head home, but then i decided NOOOO NOW OR NEVER haha and i turn around and walk up to her door and asked her..... haha well from the get go she didnt really wanna go.... and i knew that, but i just thought we'd have fun together so MAYBE she'd change her mind u know?..... but yea she didnt say NO but she said she'd think about it, and that's all i could ask of her ^^... the rest of the day was my saturday night program at church and that was fun... then i came home and slept hehe
sunday: well i went to church, came home, slept, started hw, went to drop some papers off at this one girl's house for ap biology, then came home and just did whatever.... haha hw and chill and hw and some more chilling.... then i get online and my friend who i asked to hc is on, and actually we didnt bring up the subject for a while.... but eventually we got around to it... haha and GUESS WHAT?..... she said no..... but its fine hehe, i mean i figured id just try anyways, but she was really sweet for at least reconsidering things b4 she just said no.... and yea hehe i mean i have to admit i am a tad dissapointed but its all good, its just back to brainstorming to find some1 to ask to homecoming...... but i guess i understand where she's coming from and everything so i guess everything is gravy hehe.... and now i have to get back to hw cuz my sister is tryna kill me for the internet....
well that was my weekend! tata!
Thursday, September 13, 2001
*this was actually an email i sent out, but i felt like posting it here too....
hey.. uhm guys.... im sorry if this is just reminding you of all the crap going on, or if you dont wanna hear it..... i know at times i just get sick of everything... but the attachment was written by a student from northwest high school..... so maybe this will just present everything on a moer personal level.... also.... this one kid from my grade... well im sorta friends with him.... u know one of those people you dont hang out with but if your in the same class u talk and stuff.. anyhow.... this one guy... joel wilcher... lost his dad at the pentagon.... i mean.... this might be just a story to you guys... and im sorry then.. just stop reading.... but yea... im just asking that everyone here please just keep everyone and everthing in your prayers... and that you never forget what has happened.... move on yes.... but do not forgot or lose heart for humanity as a whole.....
ive heard incredible stories of how the ppl on the plane that went down in pennsylvania rose up to fight the terrorist. to sacrifice their lives so that they could save others..... which is why the plane went down in a field in pennsylvania.. not the white house or dc...... and ive heard of ppl coming together in ny, to comfort one another.... to hold onto each other... treating strangers around them as brothers and sisters...... ive seen as countless number of my friends have rushed off to the hospital to give blood.....(u have to be 17, which i am not.....so i cant), waiting in long lines.. for 3,4 up to 8 hours......... just to help out..... and now i hear of national efforts to memorialize those who have suffered throughout all of this through symbolic acts of wearing red white and blue tomorrow and driving with your head lights on.......all of this brings more comfort and assurance and inspiration to me then ive ever felt... this is what should continue to happen, for everyone to unify and come together.. as one.... to help one another out as much as possible..... to love those close to us..... distant from us.... as well as our enemies.....speaking of which there is also quite a bit of hate and strong negative emotions and words of ignorance that has also appeared nationwide..... ppl in the middle east celebrate this horrific event why? not cuz they are bad people. but because they dont know any better.... on the flip side.... the those of us in the US too.... talk of bombing those "ragheads"... we have to be able to love our enemies..... true what has happend is unjust... but let justicer serve out itself....
i am greatly comforted by the fact that george bush is a christian..... i dunno to what extent will he apply his faith to this situation.... but we on the other hand know what we can do.... lift this up to the lord, because only he can bring good out of this..... already good has started to happen as we witness our nation come together in crisis...... some ppl say "this is way overblown, we should forget it and move on, ppl in other countries go through this everyday".... well does that make it right? this cannot be forgotten..... however i believe it should be forgiven.... find it in your hearts to ..... love your fellow brothers and sisters.... and to trust in god to handle things..... and for the hatred and the ignorance to stop....
im sorry if u feel like ive wasted your time...... its just in one of my classes today my teacher... told us to write this down, to write down how we feel, and everthing... and i couldnt write nething.... until everything sort of sank in.... and right now im just filled with emotions on all of this subject matter.... so in conclusion... i ask that 1) u not pass this off as some passing tragedy, cuz its a witness of how hate and ignorance can escalate to affect an entire nation, the entire world 2) find it in your hearts to forgive those who did this, because they too were filled with ignorance.... 3) love your brothers and sisters... and extend yourself to them... if yoru old enough i ask that u give blood and send out your prayers to the familes and victims and rescue teams out there right now 4) move on with your head high.... and have faith that things will be ok.....
thanx guys.. i wrote a lot more then i thought i was gonna write.... ill see everyone later.....
-newt
hey.. uhm guys.... im sorry if this is just reminding you of all the crap going on, or if you dont wanna hear it..... i know at times i just get sick of everything... but the attachment was written by a student from northwest high school..... so maybe this will just present everything on a moer personal level.... also.... this one kid from my grade... well im sorta friends with him.... u know one of those people you dont hang out with but if your in the same class u talk and stuff.. anyhow.... this one guy... joel wilcher... lost his dad at the pentagon.... i mean.... this might be just a story to you guys... and im sorry then.. just stop reading.... but yea... im just asking that everyone here please just keep everyone and everthing in your prayers... and that you never forget what has happened.... move on yes.... but do not forgot or lose heart for humanity as a whole.....
ive heard incredible stories of how the ppl on the plane that went down in pennsylvania rose up to fight the terrorist. to sacrifice their lives so that they could save others..... which is why the plane went down in a field in pennsylvania.. not the white house or dc...... and ive heard of ppl coming together in ny, to comfort one another.... to hold onto each other... treating strangers around them as brothers and sisters...... ive seen as countless number of my friends have rushed off to the hospital to give blood.....(u have to be 17, which i am not.....so i cant), waiting in long lines.. for 3,4 up to 8 hours......... just to help out..... and now i hear of national efforts to memorialize those who have suffered throughout all of this through symbolic acts of wearing red white and blue tomorrow and driving with your head lights on.......all of this brings more comfort and assurance and inspiration to me then ive ever felt... this is what should continue to happen, for everyone to unify and come together.. as one.... to help one another out as much as possible..... to love those close to us..... distant from us.... as well as our enemies.....speaking of which there is also quite a bit of hate and strong negative emotions and words of ignorance that has also appeared nationwide..... ppl in the middle east celebrate this horrific event why? not cuz they are bad people. but because they dont know any better.... on the flip side.... the those of us in the US too.... talk of bombing those "ragheads"... we have to be able to love our enemies..... true what has happend is unjust... but let justicer serve out itself....
i am greatly comforted by the fact that george bush is a christian..... i dunno to what extent will he apply his faith to this situation.... but we on the other hand know what we can do.... lift this up to the lord, because only he can bring good out of this..... already good has started to happen as we witness our nation come together in crisis...... some ppl say "this is way overblown, we should forget it and move on, ppl in other countries go through this everyday".... well does that make it right? this cannot be forgotten..... however i believe it should be forgiven.... find it in your hearts to ..... love your fellow brothers and sisters.... and to trust in god to handle things..... and for the hatred and the ignorance to stop....
im sorry if u feel like ive wasted your time...... its just in one of my classes today my teacher... told us to write this down, to write down how we feel, and everthing... and i couldnt write nething.... until everything sort of sank in.... and right now im just filled with emotions on all of this subject matter.... so in conclusion... i ask that 1) u not pass this off as some passing tragedy, cuz its a witness of how hate and ignorance can escalate to affect an entire nation, the entire world 2) find it in your hearts to forgive those who did this, because they too were filled with ignorance.... 3) love your brothers and sisters... and extend yourself to them... if yoru old enough i ask that u give blood and send out your prayers to the familes and victims and rescue teams out there right now 4) move on with your head high.... and have faith that things will be ok.....
thanx guys.. i wrote a lot more then i thought i was gonna write.... ill see everyone later.....
-newt
Tuesday, September 11, 2001
here's a small piece i wrote quickly in light of today's horrifc events
here we are the day's pacing by/
each second of no action is just wasting time/
rather then result to death and taking lives/
lets begin making tries to stop creating cries/
of sadness and sorrow/
cuz we dunt want more madness tomorrow/
so lets stand for a violence embargo...../
cuz until today, i didnt really know what a sad moment is/
to those who suffered today, i send my condolences/
its sad to see what our countries opponents did/
to have this happen is mos def no mans wish/
i cant be alone in this? i keep growing pist/
its as ppl are led by a controlling mist.../
of prejudice and hate/
when will people find the lesson is to wait?/
hopefully this message isnt vague/
to be continued.....
here we are the day's pacing by/
each second of no action is just wasting time/
rather then result to death and taking lives/
lets begin making tries to stop creating cries/
of sadness and sorrow/
cuz we dunt want more madness tomorrow/
so lets stand for a violence embargo...../
cuz until today, i didnt really know what a sad moment is/
to those who suffered today, i send my condolences/
its sad to see what our countries opponents did/
to have this happen is mos def no mans wish/
i cant be alone in this? i keep growing pist/
its as ppl are led by a controlling mist.../
of prejudice and hate/
when will people find the lesson is to wait?/
hopefully this message isnt vague/
to be continued.....
Monday, September 10, 2001
aiiiight aight aight...... haha i think i got this down...... some junx just had to be fixed and what not...... ne wayz here's a real post.....
uhm.... well today was sorta a dull day at school, last week was pretty hectic i guess cuz it was the first week... my first week as a senior woohoo!... but since this was the first day of the SECOND week... things have sorta settled down....
well basically im still psyched about school in general.... im hoping this senior yr is gonna be awesome and that the whole college routine wont totally bog me down.... but i guess ill jsut have to wait and find out and wait for the best.... ne how..... uhm well basically today afterschool ive been sittn around doing hw, doing crap online..... such as making this blog thingy.... and well doing more hw....
oh well at least i got to help a friend with overcoming her anxiety and encouraging her to talk to the boy of her dreams haha..... she wants to go to hc with him so much.... speaking of homecoming.... its coming up next month.... and i dunno if im gonna go....... actually by this point im pretty sure id WANT to go..... but ehhhh..... the deal is i pretty much know who id WANT to ask.... a pretty good friend of mine, but im not sure if im GOING to... cuz 1) im a wuss and 2) i dunno if she'd WANT to even go.... so if she didnt then i dun want her to feel pressured into doing anything she didnt wanna do u know?..... eh oh well decisions decisions..... i guess imma have to pray for that...
well i dunno.... i dun have too much to say besides that...... so if i think of something and im not too lazy later ill update this i suppose...... aight peace!
uhm.... well today was sorta a dull day at school, last week was pretty hectic i guess cuz it was the first week... my first week as a senior woohoo!... but since this was the first day of the SECOND week... things have sorta settled down....
well basically im still psyched about school in general.... im hoping this senior yr is gonna be awesome and that the whole college routine wont totally bog me down.... but i guess ill jsut have to wait and find out and wait for the best.... ne how..... uhm well basically today afterschool ive been sittn around doing hw, doing crap online..... such as making this blog thingy.... and well doing more hw....
oh well at least i got to help a friend with overcoming her anxiety and encouraging her to talk to the boy of her dreams haha..... she wants to go to hc with him so much.... speaking of homecoming.... its coming up next month.... and i dunno if im gonna go....... actually by this point im pretty sure id WANT to go..... but ehhhh..... the deal is i pretty much know who id WANT to ask.... a pretty good friend of mine, but im not sure if im GOING to... cuz 1) im a wuss and 2) i dunno if she'd WANT to even go.... so if she didnt then i dun want her to feel pressured into doing anything she didnt wanna do u know?..... eh oh well decisions decisions..... i guess imma have to pray for that...
well i dunno.... i dun have too much to say besides that...... so if i think of something and im not too lazy later ill update this i suppose...... aight peace!
eyo wassa..... this is my first official blog junx i suppose..... hmm... hehe i guess im doing this cuz i like the idea of an online diary, only that sounds WAY to gay.... so yea i decided blogn is a lil more..... suitable for me...... aights well.... ill get back to this later but for now im just testing the whole system.. aight ill cya later.... peace