i dont think ive ever been this unhappy/unsatisfied with the way things are...
is this a sign of growth or a sign of immaturity?

i dont think ive ever been this confused. im unsure of what i want... im unsure of what i need.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
-my immortal, evanescence

*sigh*...
i hope this doesnt last long...
one step at a time. one day at a time.

im bizack. hah. t.nuna indirectly said i was a 'gangster-wannabe-thug' or something to that degree, so i suppose if the shoe fits ill wear it. word izzup.

ok enough of that. yes, im back in school. school's for fools. not really, im just a fool regardless. im just not ready for this semester. i dont feel capABLE.... im seriously dragging my feet about this semester starting. i've never been like this before.

as soon as i got back on campus, i didnt even unpack, i just plugged in my computer and started downloading everything ive been wanting to download since i went home 6 weeks ago. yay for college OC3 internet.

its snowing like crazy outside. im not excited. i guess im just not excited to be back. im seriously weary all ready. nevermind i just started out weary. im not ready.

ok whatever, random picture time.


word.

56k at home = no desire to use the internet = lack of updates.

anyhow, happy new years everyone.
lets run with all we got. its gonna be a good year.