i dont think i've ever been so uncomfortable in my life.
it's not the kind of uncomfortable that comes from akward social situations and what not...
it's just my soul isnt settled. It's getting a lot better than before, but still, there are issues I know i have to deal with head on... and things i just have to become adjusted with. but it's hard. it's going to be hard. somethings may even hurt a bit. but I will press on. I have confidence that there will be peace... either I have to change, or something else has to change... maybe both.

I do know this though... im running out of time.