have you ever felt like something was weighing you down, and it was annoying the crap out of you?

ive been feeling like that lately. most people really enjoy and get all happy when they go through what i go through right now, but no, instead its kind of pissing me off, cuz i know how its negatively affecting me...

it brought me to the point where i started banging my head up against the elevator when i was alone....

s'ok though, ive proclaimed it to Him, that its not gonna get the best of me.

ill up date more later...