wassup. this song is months old, but it was never ready for release. it was rerecorded and rearranged tonight so here it is fresh.
an r&b track feat yours truly.
Lo-Fi
Hi-Fi
beat by: soleternity
you and you alone
Gifted Thought:
i remember feeling confused at the beginning of youth/
cuz i was given a slew of different meanings for truth/
with all we see in the news and with all the teaching in skoo's/
its like everyone gave reasons for not believing in you/
but all these meetings with you, completely opened my eyes/
made me hope for a life with the spirit growing inside/
where ya loves holding me tight, so boldly and right/
and i got you only in sight..... you and you alone....
Albee:
I doubted I didn’t believe because I lived in fear
Of committing too much of my life to one who was not here
I said id give it all but I held back a bit
My dreams my hopes my life could never be your fit
I thought the world had the answers no need to look above
Because I didn’t know how much love could love
Chorus
I know I need you but my heart is in the way
I know I love you but my feelings are delayed
You died you hurt you suffered because of me
It feels like a dream too good to be true
So I look to other things this world is what I pursued
as I live in darkness, I find there’s just too much to hide
with your strength can I show what lies inside
the only way to change is to hit my knees
save me lord from the shallowness of reality
chorus
I took you for granted always praying never knowing
What you did for me and the great love you are showing
Trust does not take a long time but a moment and a look
At the promise you made, at the death you took
Bridge:
You are my trust, my truth, my love
You are the answer
You and you alone
Chorus
Sunday, December 14, 2003
dont ask me why, cuz i dont know
but i suddenly just want to be home.
maybe im just tired of all these tests.
maybe im just grumpy cuz i just woke up.
i dont know.
maybe ill just check out tomorrow and start my break immediately after exams.
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also i feel like scrooge, im already sick about hearing about christmas. no no not the actual story behind it, just all the commercialness of the entire thing.
i'm tired of hearing christmas music.
im tired of hearing about christmas shopping, how everyone's going nuts about it. no, i have no started, and no i dont intend to get too worked up about it either. not now, not ever.
and im sick of reading people's wish lists on their xanga and profile. i dont know who started that trend, but its kind of a... eh whatever ill stop myself before i end up offending someone. i just dont think its cool.
you know, i think im just sick and tired period. like literally sick and tired, as in ill and fatigued.
oddly enough though, i had an awesome day though.
i think i just need to spend more time with the one i've quite possibly been neglecting the most.
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note to self: watch it. ok now you know where you stand and how it affects you, but the others may not be in the same position as you. dont cause em to make the same mistakes you've made in the past. don't let them fall if they have nowhere to land.
but i suddenly just want to be home.
maybe im just tired of all these tests.
maybe im just grumpy cuz i just woke up.
i dont know.
maybe ill just check out tomorrow and start my break immediately after exams.
----
also i feel like scrooge, im already sick about hearing about christmas. no no not the actual story behind it, just all the commercialness of the entire thing.
i'm tired of hearing christmas music.
im tired of hearing about christmas shopping, how everyone's going nuts about it. no, i have no started, and no i dont intend to get too worked up about it either. not now, not ever.
and im sick of reading people's wish lists on their xanga and profile. i dont know who started that trend, but its kind of a... eh whatever ill stop myself before i end up offending someone. i just dont think its cool.
you know, i think im just sick and tired period. like literally sick and tired, as in ill and fatigued.
oddly enough though, i had an awesome day though.
i think i just need to spend more time with the one i've quite possibly been neglecting the most.
----
note to self: watch it. ok now you know where you stand and how it affects you, but the others may not be in the same position as you. dont cause em to make the same mistakes you've made in the past. don't let them fall if they have nowhere to land.
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
ugh.. quick break from studying from finals.
i dont remember it ever being this painful. same time i guess its cuz i never really tried.
plus the beginning of the week was kinda wacked out... just had some weird stuff going on.
but its over/sorted out/delt with. so its straight.
even still...finals are so wack. wack, wack, wack.
im kind of scared. some of my tests could make or break me. boo.
oh well, everyone is trying to encourage one another and spur one another one, so things arent as gloomy as they could be i suppose.
everything from prayer to care packages to encouraging text msg's have been going around the body.
here's a lil tidbit of wisdom i recieved the other day...
Phillipians 4:13
"I can do everything God asks me to with the help of Christ who gives me strength"
good stuff. thanks.
*sigh* back to it i suppose.
i dont remember it ever being this painful. same time i guess its cuz i never really tried.
plus the beginning of the week was kinda wacked out... just had some weird stuff going on.
but its over/sorted out/delt with. so its straight.
even still...finals are so wack. wack, wack, wack.
im kind of scared. some of my tests could make or break me. boo.
oh well, everyone is trying to encourage one another and spur one another one, so things arent as gloomy as they could be i suppose.
everything from prayer to care packages to encouraging text msg's have been going around the body.
here's a lil tidbit of wisdom i recieved the other day...
Phillipians 4:13
"I can do everything God asks me to with the help of Christ who gives me strength"
good stuff. thanks.
*sigh* back to it i suppose.
Monday, December 01, 2003
so yes...
it is now officially crunch time.
luckily i had a very chill/relaxing weekend to help me recharge for it all..
and to be quite honest i feel good about it all... quite positive actually.
----
on sunday evening a friend and i played some basketball. yes yes... i know... i dont play basketball...
BUT I beat someone who was once an all-star basketball player at their high school... HAH.
the game looked something like this...
heh... only... not quite.
and... yea... ill just leave the rest of the details out.. except i WON.
...
......
........ and then lost twice in HORSE.
ok....
bye bye ego.
it is now officially crunch time.
luckily i had a very chill/relaxing weekend to help me recharge for it all..
and to be quite honest i feel good about it all... quite positive actually.
----
on sunday evening a friend and i played some basketball. yes yes... i know... i dont play basketball...
BUT I beat someone who was once an all-star basketball player at their high school... HAH.
the game looked something like this...
heh... only... not quite.
and... yea... ill just leave the rest of the details out.. except i WON.
...
......
........ and then lost twice in HORSE.
ok....
bye bye ego.
Saturday, November 29, 2003
i keep tryna meet up with an old friend, but things keep falling through.
i hope i dont seem too obsessive heh. i just miss talking to her.
it's been a while... and we (or at least I) always have fun doing the most mundane things.
i kind of just want to catch up, see where life has taken her the past 6 months, so on and so forth.
well, screw it... it'll have to wait till the break.
i feel restless. maybe its cuz the past few years before college i've always had close female companionship... and right now i really kind of miss that. especially some of my close friends from back in the day. right now its a little harder for me to have that same kind of relationship, mainly because the people i hang out are from my ministry. and my ministry is really protective of preserving pure friendships. that's fine, because i can understand why, since I know my heart and mind have strayed far too many times in the past. still though... there is a completely different dynamic between a same sex friendship, and a boy-girl friendship. i dont know why, but i really didnt care as much this year. who would have thought it would have taken me till my second year to start really missing the ways and faces of old.
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you know whats an important lesson i learned recently?
i need to have more trust in God. All this time i've been identifying some of my faults, and 'lifting it up to Him'... only to not even try and rely on Him at all and try to tackle things on my own means and solutions. it's why i've been getting so frustrated... over my studies, over girls, over bad habits. this entire time, my heart did not believe my prayers... and empty words are nothing but hollow gestures. they do no one any good. I really need to make my faith more REAL. screw this head knowledge... it just makes me sound like i know what im doing... but still, nothing is truly accomplished.
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turkey bowl 2003:
hah. steve (kim), you'd be happy to know that both your girls and guys teams whooped my church's teams.
but OFM boys and girls... you guys are heros in my eyes! ENNNN-KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.
it was fun seeing people from all around though.
ranging from people i see just about everyday to people i havent seen in literally over a year.
home is good for the soul.
but it was kind of a rude awakening to realize that there's issues to deal with no matter where we go. I came home with the attitude that finally... no worries.
too bad there are, and always will be...
I guess that's why faith needs to be a 24-7 type of thing anyways. God's always on duty.
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had some good ol jajungmyun in good ol annendale the other night. spend some quality time with ji-fun, carol and sei... people who i havent really hung out with in a long time. it seemed too short, but as always, it was very chill, and... very comfortable.
i love how carol can be so open and completely goofy regardless of who she's with. whether she's just met someone or has known them for years. yay for ms yu.
and camera's are always fun. im kind of starting to want one now. i've never been a picture kind of guy though.
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eh. end of entry.
i hope i dont seem too obsessive heh. i just miss talking to her.
it's been a while... and we (or at least I) always have fun doing the most mundane things.
i kind of just want to catch up, see where life has taken her the past 6 months, so on and so forth.
well, screw it... it'll have to wait till the break.
i feel restless. maybe its cuz the past few years before college i've always had close female companionship... and right now i really kind of miss that. especially some of my close friends from back in the day. right now its a little harder for me to have that same kind of relationship, mainly because the people i hang out are from my ministry. and my ministry is really protective of preserving pure friendships. that's fine, because i can understand why, since I know my heart and mind have strayed far too many times in the past. still though... there is a completely different dynamic between a same sex friendship, and a boy-girl friendship. i dont know why, but i really didnt care as much this year. who would have thought it would have taken me till my second year to start really missing the ways and faces of old.
----
you know whats an important lesson i learned recently?
i need to have more trust in God. All this time i've been identifying some of my faults, and 'lifting it up to Him'... only to not even try and rely on Him at all and try to tackle things on my own means and solutions. it's why i've been getting so frustrated... over my studies, over girls, over bad habits. this entire time, my heart did not believe my prayers... and empty words are nothing but hollow gestures. they do no one any good. I really need to make my faith more REAL. screw this head knowledge... it just makes me sound like i know what im doing... but still, nothing is truly accomplished.
----
turkey bowl 2003:
hah. steve (kim), you'd be happy to know that both your girls and guys teams whooped my church's teams.
but OFM boys and girls... you guys are heros in my eyes! ENNNN-KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.
it was fun seeing people from all around though.
ranging from people i see just about everyday to people i havent seen in literally over a year.
home is good for the soul.
but it was kind of a rude awakening to realize that there's issues to deal with no matter where we go. I came home with the attitude that finally... no worries.
too bad there are, and always will be...
I guess that's why faith needs to be a 24-7 type of thing anyways. God's always on duty.
----
had some good ol jajungmyun in good ol annendale the other night. spend some quality time with ji-fun, carol and sei... people who i havent really hung out with in a long time. it seemed too short, but as always, it was very chill, and... very comfortable.
i love how carol can be so open and completely goofy regardless of who she's with. whether she's just met someone or has known them for years. yay for ms yu.
and camera's are always fun. im kind of starting to want one now. i've never been a picture kind of guy though.
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eh. end of entry.