Yo, all I need is one mic, one beat, one stage
One nigga front, my face on the front page
Only if I had one gun, one girl and one crib
One God to show me how to do things his son did
- excerpt from One Mic by Nas
that's prob the only song i really like off his stillmatic album...
there should be more MC's who are socially concious... as opposed to all this commercialized Fabulous/Ludicrous/Jay-Z/Nelly crap....
heh, in case u cant tell im starting to get back into hip hop again... in fact in college i think im gonna start a hip hop ministry or something... i hope there are other christian lyricsts at UMBC...
ne how...
*phew* last couple weeks have been crazy... lots of good and bad things happening....
"good or bad news today, who's to say?/
for every decision we choose to make/
we all got our consequences and dues to pay/
too much to lose at stake?/
better hold on and get used to fate/
its today's sorrow, but tomorrow's blessing/
so lets try to get through our own testings/
if evil wants me to fall, ill let her wait/
i wont lose hope...
tomorrow, perhaps will be a better day/"
- that just came off the top of my head as i was writing today's post... basically sums up how things are going, i realize things arent too hot in a lot of areas in my life as well as others, but ill take things as they come, what may be bad may be blessings in disguise.... what has me lost in confusion, i will remember god's got it all worked out...
"people come and go/
memories fade, even if u wont let go/
but their influence is unequaled/
for they always remain, one in soul/"
im just spittn out things randomly here..... sometimes it hurts to say goodbye... but always remember, in some way, shape, or form, they changed your life.... and that is worth everything.....
i sent in my UMBC stuff... here i come...
graduation soon.... just those darn AP's first.... but afterwards i am done....
i dunno.... i apologize for the lack of entries lately, as i said, its been crazy.... and quite frankly i dont really feel like doing that whole memoirs thing...... so as of right now its discontinued... whenever i have some significant memory to share, ill share, if not, i wont try to remember things that dont really apply to nething...
song of the moment:
lena park - PS I love you
speaking of which....
if u are reading this, and u can sing like lena park, or have that type of sweet voice, and happen to be considering going to UMBC please do come and keep me company freshman yr.... cuz i can gaurentee ill fall in love with your voice^^ ill be your biggest fan.....
ok that was random....
bye
Tuesday, April 16, 2002
Monday, April 15, 2002
Picture time!
my fob pose at Balt, inner harbor... this will be 15 min away from where i go to school next year
soy, me, and irene tryna look sad
me, soy, irene
me and irene
irene
irene, soyoung
irene, me
pics from noraebang (brisca and irene)
me, brisca, irene
jeremy, irene
a bunch of people b4 the avalon concert
me and lily at the avalon concert
dcho, irene
pics of me being insane
k that's my update.....
my fob pose at Balt, inner harbor... this will be 15 min away from where i go to school next year
soy, me, and irene tryna look sad
me, soy, irene
me and irene
irene
irene, soyoung
irene, me
pics from noraebang (brisca and irene)
me, brisca, irene
jeremy, irene
a bunch of people b4 the avalon concert
me and lily at the avalon concert
dcho, irene
pics of me being insane
k that's my update.....
Sunday, April 14, 2002
im sorry guys, im too lazy to think back today.... maybe tomorrow ill post a memoir... as for right now it'll just be current news
this week i went to the zoo with alisha and vicky... that was fun.... funny too haha, all we did was make fun of one another, but im really thankful they came to keep me company, that was very sweet of them
saturday i couldnt even go to church, i had to do a project with a group and we worked on it for like 4 hours... we seriously underestimated the time we needed...
anyhow hanging out with my school friends and doing the project... made me realize why im closer to my church friends then i am to my school friends...
for the most part i remained silent while some of them shared their stories of being drunk, high, crazy things they've done on dates, and what not... not to say they are bad people... but i just cant relate to them as they talk about things that they do regularly that i never do.. anyhow afterwards i got to hang out with some of the guys and we played perfect dark and what not... that was fun, i hadnt actualy chilled with them outside of school before... they have always been just in school friends.... and yea the girls... they all went off to hang out with some guy they all sweated
today was just softball, church, the usual sunday experience...
u know. im gonna go off on a tangent right now..... and talk about my philsophy behind dating...
i dont know how to flirt.... i dont know how to pick up a girl... i dont know how to hit on a girl....
and i often joke about it and say i should learn, but in reality i dont think i really want to
the way i see it... i dunno i just dont like the concept of dating b4 a relationship.... the whole going somewhere, and meeting some1 for the first time, finding them attractive and then trying to get them to meet up with you another time and then after a few dates trying to base a relationship on the foundation of a FEW DATES... i dunno it seems pointless to me..... maybe im too idealistically but i believe the best relationships shall spring from a strong friendship.... so many of my friends hook up with people, and it doesnt work out and they never talk to that person again... id rather not lost a potential friend so early on just cuz i found them to be attractive and a relationship didnt work out.... for me, to say im "dating" some1 would mean im already in a relationship with them.... of course its always fun to get to know some1 new and exciting.. but i dont think you can ever learn everything about a person, therefore what can one really learn on a couple dates? the kind of relationship i want is, one where it happens because it was well thought out and prayed for heavily.... i mean sure, there are lots of girls i find to be very attractive... but i wouldnt even dare act on it until i got to be friends with them first... maybe this will change later, but i dont think id start dating some1 unless i thought i really knew who they were... of course lets say in college i meet some girl, and we instantly hit it off... we become very close very fast...... then so be it..... because its not that i dont believe in fate, because i do... and its fine because i didnt TRY to pick up this girl, nor vice versa... hmm i guess to summarize this entire passage of me rambling... when dealing with something as love/relatinoships/friendships.... i dont believe in anything but natural progression.... basically i dont believe in trying to randomly shoot fish in a barrel...... to try and make things happen... it just seems so... so... futile.... not to say it wont work... but perharps the romanticist/idealist side of me has gotten the best of me, but i think the only way is the natural way... untouched and untainted by our puny attempts at trying to find love in this world
k im done for tonite....
pics coming soon (courtesy of irene)
this week i went to the zoo with alisha and vicky... that was fun.... funny too haha, all we did was make fun of one another, but im really thankful they came to keep me company, that was very sweet of them
saturday i couldnt even go to church, i had to do a project with a group and we worked on it for like 4 hours... we seriously underestimated the time we needed...
anyhow hanging out with my school friends and doing the project... made me realize why im closer to my church friends then i am to my school friends...
for the most part i remained silent while some of them shared their stories of being drunk, high, crazy things they've done on dates, and what not... not to say they are bad people... but i just cant relate to them as they talk about things that they do regularly that i never do.. anyhow afterwards i got to hang out with some of the guys and we played perfect dark and what not... that was fun, i hadnt actualy chilled with them outside of school before... they have always been just in school friends.... and yea the girls... they all went off to hang out with some guy they all sweated
today was just softball, church, the usual sunday experience...
u know. im gonna go off on a tangent right now..... and talk about my philsophy behind dating...
i dont know how to flirt.... i dont know how to pick up a girl... i dont know how to hit on a girl....
and i often joke about it and say i should learn, but in reality i dont think i really want to
the way i see it... i dunno i just dont like the concept of dating b4 a relationship.... the whole going somewhere, and meeting some1 for the first time, finding them attractive and then trying to get them to meet up with you another time and then after a few dates trying to base a relationship on the foundation of a FEW DATES... i dunno it seems pointless to me..... maybe im too idealistically but i believe the best relationships shall spring from a strong friendship.... so many of my friends hook up with people, and it doesnt work out and they never talk to that person again... id rather not lost a potential friend so early on just cuz i found them to be attractive and a relationship didnt work out.... for me, to say im "dating" some1 would mean im already in a relationship with them.... of course its always fun to get to know some1 new and exciting.. but i dont think you can ever learn everything about a person, therefore what can one really learn on a couple dates? the kind of relationship i want is, one where it happens because it was well thought out and prayed for heavily.... i mean sure, there are lots of girls i find to be very attractive... but i wouldnt even dare act on it until i got to be friends with them first... maybe this will change later, but i dont think id start dating some1 unless i thought i really knew who they were... of course lets say in college i meet some girl, and we instantly hit it off... we become very close very fast...... then so be it..... because its not that i dont believe in fate, because i do... and its fine because i didnt TRY to pick up this girl, nor vice versa... hmm i guess to summarize this entire passage of me rambling... when dealing with something as love/relatinoships/friendships.... i dont believe in anything but natural progression.... basically i dont believe in trying to randomly shoot fish in a barrel...... to try and make things happen... it just seems so... so... futile.... not to say it wont work... but perharps the romanticist/idealist side of me has gotten the best of me, but i think the only way is the natural way... untouched and untainted by our puny attempts at trying to find love in this world
k im done for tonite....
pics coming soon (courtesy of irene)