winetyme.
i miss camp heaven. i don't want someone to leave. im beginning to be indifferent on purpose, questioning its lasting effect. games have taken over me, both literally and mental. loner state has taken full effect. too apathetic right now. jaded fo sho. i taste bitterness like salt, and i begin to think that sometimes there's too much salt. where's the counter balance of the light? just too comfortable being uncomfortable. question: does a prayer that lacks passion insult God? another: forcing myself to go through the motions... is that better or worse? fake. newty has acquired big booty. water is therapeutic. always wanted good but never thought i wouldnt be good enough. huh. baby shark doo doo. oh eff em. lite howz. lit L lites. tee gee. kay em sea o' lub.
gee em pee sea. min, es, tree. bliggity bliggity blah blah whatever.
this. come. fort.
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
jay did.
gun fused.
...yea.
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There's twenty-four reasons
To admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses
Still twenty-four strong
-twenty four, switchfoot
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It's 10 past 3 and I'm wondering
If I'm in past over my head and
I'm filled with a lot of anxiety
- 10 past 3, jay legaspi
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I will never be you and you will never be me
But I'm like whatever we can work together and see
And all we need is the sun and some water for this tree
And we can all get free even I can get free
I'll never be the freshest, Never be the dopest/
even though sometimes its hopeless I'll never loose focus/
I'll never be afraid to show the depth of my emotions/
Theres a side of me thats deeper than the belly of the ocean/
I'll never be the smartest Never be the brightest/
I'll never be the hardest, never be the tightest/
-never, unknown prophets
----
like the passing weather, all of our lives has their seasons/
there’s always people coming in while some of them are leaving/
each of them marks our hearts in their separate way/
but don’t forget to someone else… we also do the same/
-people come and go, GT
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night. lights. a persistent buzz, the price for chilled air.
looking, maybe? unsure, likely.
peace of mind or a mind in pieces?
left with simple questions with obvious answers, and complex answers with subtle questions.
is this gibberish or unprecedented depth?
perhaps forced.. or natural?
a distraction here, indulgence there. either way it's looking away.
do i dare stare and make my own interpretations? or maybe back off and let the story tell itself.
darkness bring appreciation for light. a lesson in gratitude seems to bein order.
shh, silence. what you see is a shell, holding in the noise.
tired.
gun fused.
...yea.
----
There's twenty-four reasons
To admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses
Still twenty-four strong
-twenty four, switchfoot
----
It's 10 past 3 and I'm wondering
If I'm in past over my head and
I'm filled with a lot of anxiety
- 10 past 3, jay legaspi
----
I will never be you and you will never be me
But I'm like whatever we can work together and see
And all we need is the sun and some water for this tree
And we can all get free even I can get free
I'll never be the freshest, Never be the dopest/
even though sometimes its hopeless I'll never loose focus/
I'll never be afraid to show the depth of my emotions/
Theres a side of me thats deeper than the belly of the ocean/
I'll never be the smartest Never be the brightest/
I'll never be the hardest, never be the tightest/
-never, unknown prophets
----
like the passing weather, all of our lives has their seasons/
there’s always people coming in while some of them are leaving/
each of them marks our hearts in their separate way/
but don’t forget to someone else… we also do the same/
-people come and go, GT
----
night. lights. a persistent buzz, the price for chilled air.
looking, maybe? unsure, likely.
peace of mind or a mind in pieces?
left with simple questions with obvious answers, and complex answers with subtle questions.
is this gibberish or unprecedented depth?
perhaps forced.. or natural?
a distraction here, indulgence there. either way it's looking away.
do i dare stare and make my own interpretations? or maybe back off and let the story tell itself.
darkness bring appreciation for light. a lesson in gratitude seems to bein order.
shh, silence. what you see is a shell, holding in the noise.
tired.
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
these are few and far between huh?
the summer is coming to an end and soon its back to the good ol' university of mury-land, baldimore county as my kids would have said. camp heaven oh-four has come to an end. the TG pastoral internship has also pretty much reached its demise.
the outcome? i've gained a lot. including about 10-15 lbs or so. more on that some other time.
mega-post coming your way in a week or so. "i know ya haven't seen one in a minute".
one.
the summer is coming to an end and soon its back to the good ol' university of mury-land, baldimore county as my kids would have said. camp heaven oh-four has come to an end. the TG pastoral internship has also pretty much reached its demise.
the outcome? i've gained a lot. including about 10-15 lbs or so. more on that some other time.
mega-post coming your way in a week or so. "i know ya haven't seen one in a minute".
one.