things are a bit rough...
but im not scared

i dont think i've ever been so uncomfortable in my life.
it's not the kind of uncomfortable that comes from akward social situations and what not...
it's just my soul isnt settled. It's getting a lot better than before, but still, there are issues I know i have to deal with head on... and things i just have to become adjusted with. but it's hard. it's going to be hard. somethings may even hurt a bit. but I will press on. I have confidence that there will be peace... either I have to change, or something else has to change... maybe both.

I do know this though... im running out of time.

Isaiah 30:21
Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it."

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yea its been posted once, but ill post it again..

this time, ive made up my mind
this time, im back on my grind
i know theres things in my life that imma let go starting tonight
i cant live my
i cant live my
i cant live my life this way.
-this way, dilated peoples ft kanye west

im so close to doing it right....

but even closer to giving up.

...
i've felt better.

ok so i give anyone permission to shoot me. why?
cuz i started watching a korean drama, something i've sworn to myself i would never do.
ok, so which one you might ask? maybe its something really different that not too many people know about.
well.. not exactly.

it's a lil something called stairway to heaven. what kind of sappy teeny bopper have i become. (no offense to those who like it haha)

anyways, shoot me.

okok, before you do let me say something though.

miahnheh.

yea well that's that....
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.edit.

lifehouse has done it again for me...
thanks to hansel for giving me the album so many months ago.

this time what i want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
this time you burn me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
i've seen it all
it was never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

*take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

I try to make my way to you
but still i feel so lost
I don't know what else i can do
cause i've seen it all
it was never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you *

don't give up on me yet
don't forget who i am
i know i'm not there yet
but don't let
me stay here alone
-take me away, lifehouse