this song is by an amateur singer, eunnie, who's just a high schooler from cali... but man has she got some chops.
listen to the song... puts a lot of things in perspective... this is the kind of thing i needed to hear a couple years ago.

The Quest
Lyrics:
(1st verse)
For such a long time
It¡¯s been an endless quest
I searched so long
For the things found in love songs
So much confusion
An illusion¡¦
That human love is all I need
Now I know, I know, it¡¯s not complete
My heart has the courage
To finally see
That you¡¯re every part of me
It¡¯s been sitting here right in front of me
Right in my face¡¦
You¡¯re the reason for my existence
You are the one
(Chorus)
Your endless love
It poured out on me
It took three nails
To finally set me free
I was so blind
Too blind, too blind to find
You saved me
Only you
Hung on the cross
I felt the pain so deeply
Every drop of blood
Stained on that tree
You gave me life¡¦
Never thought twice
To save me

(2nd verse)
So many times, too many things left me in the dust
Backs were turned; they all broke my trust
I¡¯ve longed for passion found on the silver screen
Now I realize¡¦
It¡¯s the last thing that I need
¡®Cause here in reality
You¡¯ve got to step out of that dream
Why did I turn my back this time?
From a love that will never change, or ever fade, never decline
I couldn¡¯t see
Just forgive me

(Chorus 2x)
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This next song is by another amateur singer... a college kid from columbia i believe... he's a great song writer... and this song is just a real interesting listen. once again... its all about perspective.


Social Geometry
Lyrics:
midnight paints the wall along with tinted lamplight
i'm
amidst the lines of bass and conversation
her line of sight invites as she passes by
with "take-me-to-the-bedroom" eyes
she comes close
clothes just like a second skin
slowly stepping in she winks
and ticks her hips with pursing lips and
he's lucky
to pull her to his side
leaving me to write the scene
from a safer distance set for me
i've noticed a trend that says that
squares don't fit in circles of friends
a case of failed

...social geometry
...social geometry

see i know the shame of smiles
and waving hi..
to someone who meant to greet the one behind you
and how...slow...
motion can be in a scene
where every move you make fills something intimate
with huge mistakes
and i'd be great if people liked
the "loud-when-nervous" kind of type
but no one always sees that always justified
consider me one awkward night personified
a record scratched that plays this fool
in stereo and endless loops

and if the first foot forward always should be best
it tends to block my next steps
making me hate me in social contexts
cause i can't help but trip on words that slip from
nervous lips
oh save me...
make me right
at very least just keep me quiet

but if not tonight
i... will...

if not tonight
then one day i'll remake this bed i sleep upon
if not tonight
i'll break the wall this flowers rooted heavy on
if not tonight
then one day i'll be someone fun to figure out
if not tonight
i'll make me something
someone to write home about

and even if it kills me one day i will learn this
lesson
you're supposed to kill with kindess
not supposed to kill with first impressions
so that your mention
won't win the prize of rolling eyes
and every whisper brings to mind a hint of smile
or word that's kind

but i refuse to change my shape
just to fit in
so until
this square changes
some of circle's mass appeal...

...i'll sit and wait...
...and be a case of failed...

...social geometry
...social geometry

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anyways i think imma change the layout of this blog. its been a while.
also, i think imma change me. i truly need it.

and if you're bored...

avoiding project.

Bold the movies youve seen entirely:

1. X-Men
2. The Craft
3. X2 : X-Men United
4. Swimfan
5. Fellowship of the Ring
6. Finding Nemo
7. Peter Pan
8. Home Alone
9. Aladdin
10. The Ring
11. 10 Things I Hate About You
12. Not Another Teen Movie
13. Spiceworld
14. 8 Mile
15. Bambi
16. Pirates of the Carribean
17. Edward Scissorhands
18. Stepmom
19. My Best Friends Wedding
20. 101 Dalmatians
21. Scream
22. Scream 2
23. Scream 3
24. Big Daddy
25. Billy Madison
26. Chamber of Secrets
27. Sorcerer Stone
28. Heartbreakers
29. Dumb & Dumber
30. Cruel Intentions
31. Scary Movie
32. Look Who's Talking
33. Blade
34. Blade II
35. O
36. Titanic
37. Carrie
38. Carrie 2: The Rage
39. Daddy Day Care
40. Legally Blonde
41. Austin Powers
42. Storm of the Century
43. Oliver and Company
44. The Two Towers
45. The Return of the King
46. Mighty Ducks
47. Fast and the Furious
48. 2 Fast, 2 Furious
49. A Walk To Remember
50. Triple X
51. Beauty and the Beast
52. I Know What You Did Last Summer
53. I Still Know What You Did Last Summer
54. Sound of Music
55. Mary Poppins
56. Tuck Everlasting
57. The Patriot
58. The Wizard of Oz
59. Killing Ms. Tingle
60. Crossroads
61. Now and Then
62. Pearl Harbor
63. Just Married
64. Cast Away
65. Radio Flyer
66. Final Destination
67. Lady and the Tramp
68. Shallow Hal
69. 40 Days and 40 Nights
70. Bring It On
71. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
72. The Outsiders
73. The Matrix
74. Perfect Storm
75. Austin Powers 2
76. Never Been Kissed
77. Clueless
78. Bruce Almighty
79. Remember the Titans
81. Girl, Interrupted
82. SWAT
83. Sixth Sense
84. Phone Booth
85. The Lion King
86. Urban Legends
87. Nightflier
88. Lion King 2
89. Little Mermaid
90. American Pie
91. Center Stage
92. Scooby Doo
93. Bedazzled
94. Mrs. Doubtfire
95. Save the Last Dance
96. My Girl
97. American Beauty
98. Romeo & Juliet
99. Lost World
100. Casper

dag i watch too many movies.

oh yea, random list credit to susan.

i need to shut up.

lent is over, i can write in here again.
but you know what? i wasnt too faithful to the other comittments that really mattered.
in fact, during this season i strayed in many ways. it's been an interesting season for sure though, lots of things have been happening, both good and bad.

so yea, there have been a couple songs that have really intrigued me... one of which is
hoobastank's the reason... but everyone's already talking about it so ill shed some light on a song that has more applicable lyrics for me anyways.

i've had lifehouse's stanley climbfall album for a while now sitting in a folder on my computer but never really gave it a good listen...
but here is this song, am i ever gonna find out?, and wow... hits the spot.

"silence is golden
but I think it's gonna kill me now
everything I've seen
never seems to filll me now
no one told me that the world could fall through yeah

in between this
am I gonna find a way
to defeat this
living inside yesterday
I'm alive but I think it's time to live
like I am
am I ever gonna find it
am I ever gonna find it
am I ever gonna find out

patience can wait for now
I think I've waited for too long
you always gave a choice
and the right to be wrong
all my life has been slipping through your hands yeah

in between this
am I gonna find a way
to defeat this
living inside yesterday
I'm alive, I think it's time to live
like I am
am I ever gonna find it
am I ever gonna find it
am I ever gonna find out"
- Am I ever gonna find out?, Lifehouse

ill post more later.

Ok. bye.
for now.