note to self: watch where you step newt, watch where you step. this is all familiar territory, its exactly where you dont wanna be.

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last night i was talking with a friend, and i started to put out my thoughts on our ministry body's social interactions and the dynamics and such. i mentioned the concept of spiritual warfare, working through the our personalities to expose and exploit faults that can potentially create a rift in our unity and 'one-ness'. maybe its me being over analytical, but it seems to me that these things are taking place every day. especially since a large group of us live all within the same general vicinity here on campus, obiviously because of circumstance we are around one another more. sure we laugh more, but already this year there has been levels of discomfort and levels of growing intolerance among some of us and i pray this pattern doesnt continue. i love this body, and i thank and love God for brining me to this body. i hope it remains one in Him.

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my own personal battles remain awfully similar to those that I have had in the past, only... it seems like things are being handled a lot better....

1. studies/lazyiness... i gotta be a good stewart in my studies
2. girls... its important i keep the mentality that each of these young ladies are my SISTERS in christ. how i interact and deal with them should reflect that.
3. turning away from temptation ... in some area's im pretty darn weak.

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[edit pt 1, 10/16/03]
my goals for this week... (in the more physical sense)
1. rock my calc exam tomorrow
2. rock my comp sci program due wed night
3. get early start on physics (didnt happen)
4. go to a theater and watch a movie on my own (chimee once told me she does this and i've always wanted to try the same since)

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multimedia updates:

first things first, i made a new track... sorry if my vocal volume levels are a little soft, it was hard to master the track so that everything blended and didnt have a amateurish sound to them.

peep it at my sound click.

http://www.soundclick.com/bands/6/giftedthoughtmusic.htm

its called "may i..."
i just put out how i was feeling. not your ordinary love song though.

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next... check this guy out...
some flip guy named jay legaspi... very soothing acoustic music.

http://www.soundclick.com/bands/0/jaylegaspimusic.htm

personally, im feeling his two studio tracks, "try, wait" and "10 past 3" the most... its good ish. gotta show love to the underground artists ya know?

[edit pt 2, 10/16/03]

it's 10 past 3 and i'm wondering
If i'm in past over my head and i'm
filled with a lot of anxiety
i apologize in advance for
not giving you any type of warning
i hope that you won't get too mad at me

don't read too much between the lines
'cause I haven't written much this time
just want to see if i'd be fine
without you in my life

and my heart says no..

but my mind says it's possible...
-10 past 3, jay legaspi

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lastly, check out this link.
just a couple video's of what we do on our downtime ^^

quicktime required.
http://sta.umbc.edu/orgs/agape/tym.html

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yay for college.

subject: *es*
notes: wasnt quite what i made it all out to be... or maybe what i hoped for. s'ok, its an opportunity to be around something new. and it also means its not a replacement, which is good because i shouldnt be searching for one. i guess the worst that can happen is that it all falls into the catogory of... typical.

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dope song. lyrics are good. great musician.

-caught up in your love, ari hest

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before.


after.

"im giving you my heart, and all that is within"
"i surrender"

i almost forgot what it feels like. its kind of refreshing... in a ... familiar sort of way. if that made any sense at all.
im beginning to think, that there is a certain quality. an x-factor. this shall be an interesting development. i need to remain on my toes though... because this can be potentially dangerous. not to self: *es*
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new track...

What's Pain feat. DongJin03 and Eunnie

Hi-Fi
Lo-Fi

feedback? thoughts? comments?
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OC.

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spring retreat.

"one by one we climb up the mountain..."
-eddie kim

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Baby set me free from this misery
I can't take it no more
Since you went away nothing's been the same
Don't know what I'm living for
Here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go

So I told you lies even made you cry
Baby I was so wrong
Girl I promise you now my love is true
This is where my heart belongs
Cos here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

And I wonder, are you thinking of me
Cos I'm thinking of you
And I wonder
Are you ever coming back in my life?
Cos here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do
-Back Here, BBMak

ive been eff'ing up past couple days. just poor willpower and general apathy.
not a good sign. there's something beneath all of this.

i seriously sometimes want to scream phucket.

-misc notes-
.are. seemed especially pretty today
.see. still feels cold
.bee. out of sight but not out of mind
.el. slowly coming up

.jay. got some good news, gotta be there

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........
poo.

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chut sarang.